On Whether I Feel Exasperated Some Days

Oh yes. I do all the time. Job did too. But, remember to honor Him and bless Him in all your prayers, and be very specific with your needs.

The thing about God is that He’s good, and He won’t give you something that will hurt you. Say you want to be a millionaire? Right? Well, God knows you’re liable to forget Him if you get all that money. So, you need to allow yourself to be shepherded and walk with Him always.

But, it’s not a sin to be exasperated with life. Jesus, Himself, sweat blood before the crucifixion. It’s okay to be overwhelmed by the burdens of life, just make sure you continue steadfast in your faith, and you don’t waiver in it. Rather, seek the LORD at your lowest moments, and triumph. Then, you’ll be like Joshua and Caleb, and ready to enter into the promised land. You’ll see Giants and many Phoenicians like Grasshoppers in the land, but you’ll be encouraged about the battle, not discouraged.

And also remember, sometimes the enemy has chariots of Iron. Like, that happens too. Sometimes the enemy’s so strong, that no earthly force can deliver you, and sometimes God wants you to be in a position of weakness, so the world has a chance to do what’s right. Will it? Well, it could. But, in terms of those victim souls—that’s what they call them—some like Jeremiah spent his whole life preaching, he saw the glory days of Josiah, and the heap of ruin that was Jehoiakim and Zedekiah’s reign. And at the end, when he finally could have peace—after being thrown in prison—the Jews forced him down to Egypt, where God explicitly told them not to go. It wasn’t Jeremiah’s fault he went to Egypt, they just wouldn’t take no for an answer. And then you have John the Baptist beheaded, and Jesus Himself crucified.

But, with evil’s earthly victory, God always prevails. With Jeremiah, he left a beautiful testament about how there will be an afterlife—as how would God prosper Jeremiah, unless it were in the next life? And also a rich testament, that John the Baptist paved the way for Christ and a new religion, and Jesus was crucified and crushed Satan’s head. And He raised in triumph.

That’s how God works. And there’s prosperous saints, too, but in an age where people are lawless, it’s more likely the righteous are going to be martyred and persecuted. And that’s something you have to be ready for in this world.

So, I know that’s a hard message. But, it’s the one you need right now. You’re not the only Godly servant who was exasperated. Many of the chosen by God lived horrible lives. Some of them didn’t. But, it’s Christ in the end, and a promised Land that you’re going to, so this life is simply a testing ground, to see where you’re at with your faith, and whether you’ll stay with God to the end.

And I believe there will be prosperity for God’s servants, even in this life. You’ll be fed the finest grains, is what God says, you’ll feed on Milk and Honey—you’ll have love in your life at all times, and in your soul—you’ll have blessing and flourishing in times of drought, and seasons of lack. God will provide for you what you need, in seasons of darkness, and even if the sun blackens over the land, you’ll have God as a light. As will I, if each of us perseveres with Him. It will hail in one place, and death and decay and destruction, but it won’t come near your tent. And that’s something God promises. That though it’s hard, you’ll be protected from the ruin that encompasses the world around you. And that’s why you need to stay yoked to God, otherwise Satan’s kingdom will have its reign over you, and that’s eternal torment.