No drugs, alcohol, tattoos, gambling, pornography, prostitutes, one night stands, living without benefit of clergy, divorce, gossip, profanity or slander. Also, be grateful. That'd be my honest advice to a youth. Will they follow it? No. But, you do drugs, you get addicted. You drink, you get addicted. You get tattoos, you look and feel dirty. You gamble, you go into debt. You watch pornography, you become a creep. You have one night stands, you get children out of wedlock. You live without the benefit of the clergy, you also get children out of wedlock. You divorce, your children live in broken homes and begin to be bitter. You gossip, you hurt other people. You use profanity, it reinforces anger. You slander, you damage someone's reputation. If you're not grateful, you squander the present moment.
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Response to Promise Backlund’s 5 Weird Things about the Faith
1. Well, the source of joy, love and peace is God. It's not a domination ritual, it's just an acknowledgment to God's wisdom, that we will pattern our life according to what He said. Because ultimately that makes everyone better off. I never understood worship either. But, sometimes, sitting in silence, or being still, and knowing God is there, or singing a song to Him when no one is watching, it just connects you to something bigger. And Bluegrass Hymns are so beautiful. That's my kind of worship. It's so real. Bethel, Hillsong and Elevation are really strange to my ears, and bring a sort of unease.
2 & 3. Well, Baptism is kind of weird. So is communion. But, those are the only two sacraments God has given us, and that to be an outward sign of our faith. Yes, I understand that. Baptism is the New Bris. Or New Circumcision. That was something I had to understand reading Jeremiah, so any form of it, is legitimate, so long as it's in faith. Communions is a replacement for the animal sacrifice. They poured the blood of the animal into the ground, and ate the flesh. That was meant to be a sign of your sin going into the animal. But, that wasn't enough to save, so now that sacrifice is Christ Jesus. Because a sin that brought death on someone, couldn't be forgiven by the animal sacrifice. So we eat His flesh and drink His blood, like they did with the Animal Sacrifice.
4. I don't like the tone many Evangelicals take during prayer. It sounds very fake. But, prayer is powerful. It can change the entire world. I've seen it many times, which is why offering prayers to God can be helpful, but also dangerous. I've been slowly understanding that the Lord's Prayer is an example of how to pray for a reason, is that God is totally that powerful. And so, you should probably pray prayers of mercy, thanks and forgiveness. And also intercede for others, praying more for their souls, than your own. Well, don't forget Moses interceded for Israel. God will listen, and gives us a portion of judgment, and power. Which He intends for us to use it for other's mercy, and not judgment.
5. Well, the Aleph and the Tav are symbols of the Ox and Cross, it goes back to Proto Hebrew. Christ is the Sacrificial Ox, and the Cross is the Covenant or Mark of Salvation. You can see it on my thumbnail. So, God foreknew Jesus would die on a cross, and even put it in the stars as a sign. You can see the Summer Triangle, the triangle is an A, and the constellation Cygnus is the cross. So the Cross is a symbol set for us, from the beginning.
Constantine and American Perseuction
My personal experience with [the reason Evangelicals don't like Constantine], isn't due to the Da Vinci Code, but a long string of Protestants, who thought the Catholic Church was Antichrist. You see that in Anabaptist writings all the time from 1500 onward. Foxe's Book of Martyrs doesn't just have Protestant Martyrs, but dialogues about the Catholic atrocities in the Americas, India and Africa. That just comes with the territory of Protestants. Just like Catholics think Protestants have no true authority to teach, or give communion. It's just bad blood.
But there really is persecution of Christians. In Foxe's book of Martyrs he talks about economic persecutions, too, which Christians are increasingly becoming the victim of. Mail Fraud, objectors within Government not doing their paperwork, investigations by Police, gaslighting from neighbors, HR departments not hiring due to online content or reputation. It's becoming real, friend. Try not to blame Christians for the very real suffering they're experiencing, and don't gaslight them, saying it's not happening. Some people need those followers, too, to have food on their table. In this economy, that's practically a large portion of people's livelihoods, something like 4,000,000.
That's also how the church was persecuted in Thyatira, not with torture, death or imprisonment, but they denied them access to the public economy. Because they wouldn't tolerate the Woman Jezebel.
On Faith and Math
[There's enough evidence for the Bible to know it's true.] You know, in Calculus, you have enough information to find the answer. If you needed all of it, you'd just keep adding up the sums forever. Sometimes, you have to see the pattern, and [divide] to the right answer.
{}Numbers are not abstractions. They're measurements. And the reason Calculus works, is that the measurements in an infinite series, increase, and it gets calculated out to infinity in what's called a limit. But, you only need one or two ratios to get to the answer, not the entire infinite sum.
Same thing with this, I don't need all the evidence to know the Bible's true. Only enough to complete the pattern.
To get a good idea of it, look at [an infinite sum.] It's just seeing the pattern, you can jump the the conclusion, without all of [the ratios] being used.
And calculus basically takes that same idea, and uses it with trigonometry and formulas which are comprised of different curves through what's called a derivative, to basically do the same thing, and calculate a curve, or the area underneath it.
But generally, a lot of things in life have to be a leap of faith. You can't scratch at all the data, you have to make an assumption, even though it is 100% true.
[Two] looks like a lot of things. {}
I mean, I'm not going to go over number theory{} [it] should have [been] learned {} in third grade. {}[D]oes the word "Dandelion" exist? You know? Or "Atom"[?] That's just semantics. And really a rabbit hole for navel gazers. The fact is, there's a thing, we talk about it, and that's how most things work in the real world.
{}I'm making an analogy between calculus and evidence for the Bible. [It's] asked [of] me, "Do you know all the evidence for the Bible?" I sa[y], "No, but you don't have to, because like in calculus, you can make a leap to the conclusion, with limited information." Then [it's] retorted, "Math is an abstraction." [Then I say] it's not. And then [it's] said, "Show me two."
You see, [this is] mining down to the very basics of ontology. [It's] asking a question irrelevant to the point, of what is a number, when I simply said, you can reason to higher things, with limited knowledge. So, likewise, with numbers, we know what they are. And in calculus, there's a number that a curve relates to. And we calculate that number with limited information. And that curve measures things, and the area underneath it can be used to understand things. Imagine that.
So, the archeology I've found, though not all of it, likewise, shows a pattern of the Bible being true. Like, in calculus, there's a pattern with limited information that shows you the exact measurement of the curve or the area underneath it.
Okay, you need me to explain number theory. That's alright.
So, numbers are a ratio. They relate to things that way, and can be described in geometric figures. And in geometric figures, what is similar, can be augmented or diminished, to create similar number. This works in sets--like two apples---or in side lengths--like in a square side length of two, or area of two, which will have side lengths of square root of two---or in physical energy and waves, like in quanta or heat distribution, it will relate through rate of change, which draws back to the calculus I was talking about. So, that's what number is. Not an abstraction, but a measurement of a countable object.
In logic, numbers follow certain systems, through operations like division, multiplication, square roots, exponents, subtraction and addition. And these can be built on one another, through a variety of ways, to build logic which can describe physical space and time. And the number relates to the ontology of the objects we measure, and the operations on the epistemological conclusions, which can be used to draw comparisons between similar objects and reach new conclusions. Due to equalities.
What I'm doing, is making an analogy between Calculus and the Evidence of the Bible. You said, "Do you have all the evidence." Well, I took an analogy of Calculus, and the logic used in Calculus, which is a prediction of a pattern, to get us to a number that relates to a curve. And I related it to the Bible, by saying I've seen enough evidence for the Bible, to conclude that it's true. Therefore, God exists. In evidence of archeology, philosophy, and textually.
A thing is either true or false. Logic moves from one truth, to an unknown truth.
I start with the evidence I've seen of the Bible being true, and moved to conclude that the Bible was true, therefore it was a witness of God. Since the evidence was true, it must follow that God is too.
You argue semantics too much. Whether a ratio is an abstraction or not, it does nothing for the analogy I made, which you ignored completely.
You asked me, "Do you have all the evidence?" I said, like in calculus, you can have limited information, and reach the right conclusion. Which you said, "Prove to me the number two." And then said, "Number is an abstraction." Number is not an abstraction. Even in ratios, there's a certain law which the numbers follow, which is described by the ratio. That law, is the foundation of reason. Not the numbers, but what the numbers represent. Likewise, the Bible has true evidence, corroborating it as a chain of witnesses, which is why I believe in it.
[So t]he number two is true, where the equality makes it true. So, to answer your question, you need a context for it to be either true or false. And that's how logic works. And that is not an abstraction.
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My Doubt
I do believe in God. Rather, I know there's a God. My doubt is that He's good. My other doubt is that He will save me.
My first doubt, that He is good: I love the Bible. I just don't know if the Bible is simply this joke God pulled on human beings, and was like, "Here's the rules, so now I'm going to crush you if you try to follow them." As that's the main point Christians seem to bring up, is that we're saved by "Grace" which ultimately throws away any responsibility. The Law is beautiful--if you understand it fully, and especially if you look closely at Paul's Epistles, it's a beautiful concept. That we're ultimately condemned to die under the perfection of the Law, but God chose to give us mercy. For what reason? Here is where Christians seem to fracture, most think that's all we need, is the gift of God's grace, and there's nothing more to it. Meanwhile, someone who truly desires to be righteous and loves the Law gets crushed by design under the Christian's teachings, who seem to blame suffering on the one who bears it---which is entirely contrary to both Old and New Testament teaching. So, I do not know if Christians have the word of God, and the Bible is false. Or if the Bible is true, and Christians are rather engaged in some worldly religion, about making oneself rich and ignoring the weightier matters of the Law, such as Mercy, Justice and Faithfulness.
My doubt that He will save me. I've made oaths, I've thought impure thoughts, I've almost become shipwrecked, and it's not for lack of wanting the faith, or trying. And I truly desire the fruits of righteousness, and the fruits of truth, but it seemed by manner of consequence, I could never find a true church that taught the full balance of the Gospel, and they all steered me away from what I truly needed. And listening to sermons, they seem to be accusatory of my condition, calling me out for the fact that I am suffering. I do, however, get great comfort in the Bible---as it seems to scream back at the Christians all the time, "The poor and sufferer and needy are who you must uplift! Sorrow is to be expected." But, then the Christians scream back, "He's poor, and meek, and humiliated! Why ought we listen?" So, I don't know if I'm saved on that account, that nobody cared about my soul enough to show me the love of God and also discipline me. It was either too much love, or too much discipline. Which, I say that God's love and discipline are my reason for believing in Him... but at the moment I feel hurt and pain and depression, because the entirety of Christianity seems to run aground, and there's no true preacher within 50 miles. So, I have the radio instead, and it seems they affirm the same message that to be saved, is to prosper in this life. And I feel unsaved because I have none of the things of this world, but rather shame, and confusion, and sorrow. But, then I read the Psalms and Prophets. Those do not shame me. And again I wonder, if God told a joke, and I was just not in on it.
Seventh Day Adventists
Yeah, that's a cult. No doubt. Good work Matt. I had no idea. Let's put it this way, there's Poets and there's Posers. People who make "Prophecies" expecting them to come true, are just people trying to gain a following.
The Hebrew word for Prophet is "Interpreter." I learned that from Baruch Spinoza of all people. But, generally, I think creatively reflecting on scripture, is different than trying to exert your own beliefs as if they were. Which, Ellen G. White crossed that line. Nothing I write is sacred... it's just sermons in the form of Poetry. If it all got burned tomorrow, it'd be a waste for me, as it wouldn't save souls. But, there'd be no loss to the kingdom. That I know of. I always say, if any scripture actually gets written, it will appear there in scripture, and nobody will have to do anything to it. God will do it.
The Abolishment of Diet, Sabbath and New Moon Colossians 2:20-23
20 Wherefore if ye be dead with Christ from the rudiments of the world, why, as though living in the world, are ye subject to ordinances,
21 (Touch not; taste not; handle not;
22 Which all are to perish with the using;) after the commandments and doctrines of men?
23 Which things have indeed a shew of wisdom in will worship, and humility, and neglecting of the body: not in any honour to the satisfying of the flesh.
 Tall el-Hammam Trinitite
I suffer the ridicule of many...
My work is called bad.
I spend 20 years doing it.
I can write epic poems,
But it is called "Word Salad."
Though, it can be understood,
And it is beautiful.
I write novels, but every sentence
Needs to be whittled down.
I struggle with the Piano.
I struggle with everything in life.
My body just won't let me do what I want to do.
And I have God, but I remember
All my friends and family
Making me small and little...
As the world does today.
I truly don't know if He hates me...
If that's why I received schizophrenia.
I don't know if the secret to Christianity
Is that we don't have to try at all...
And we can just live free and however we want to.
I don't know if trying is a sin;
If desiring to be good is what's truly evil;
I have very little emotions now.
My dreams accuse me,
Sometimes mocking me as if they were God.
I sing "Ave Maria"---Maria is not my god.
But I dream it, and the little image flashes before my eyes, and says,
"The dog ate my religion."
I do not know if I will create a cult---
I don't mean to.
The woman who I've never known
Twists me a thousand different ways.
I am still poor.
I am still ridiculed.
I am called "Stupid"
Though I know a thing or two.
Why do I love God, though?
Because the God of the Bible---
The one who caused Hadad to attack Solomon---
Is good.
We are not to slay the Edomites,
For they have some things right.
The preacher says they should have been slain to the last,
But I saw Joab do it, and I know Joab is wrong.
And Satan is like Joab...
So I cannot ally with him.
And I saw the star fall from heaven,
So I cannot believe in science.
I see Trump is figuring himself to be a Messiah,
And I see Christians banning with him...
I say he is no messiah.
But why did God do this to me?
Is it some sort of test?
To shake me to my core foundations,
And see what's left?
He has shaken me.
But I still cling.
For, I was a genius, and was treated like a retarded child.
I was able to do my business, but it was always done for me.
I was made into a pariah, even before anyone knew I had done wrong.
Maybe that's why I'd done wrong?
And I say, "Is it God doing this to me?
"Does God loathe my soul?
"Are Gays actually right?
"Are Transgenders?
"Is it a sin to preach on righteousness?
"Is it a sin to tell the truth?"
And then I see this wisdom:
"Blessed be ye if you hate this life, for you shall gain it."
And they strip it from me,
This little shred of wisdom
Saying, "No, you must love your life, and be prosperous.
"That is the only way to be saved."
For they grow tares, in Christianity, and only tares.
And then they become roots of bitterness.
For, they don't preach suffering, or sermons on bearing patiently.
Only about how we must be happy at all times,
And not laid to sadness.
Though, can I love my life, and still be saved?
I don't know.
Do I love life?
Yes. In a sense.
I have a thousand blessings...
But when I told "God" in my dream, I prayed the Prayer of Moses
And the Prayer of David, and that Avatar
Tried to make me ashamed.
That is not a god, in my dreams... it is a persecution,
An envy of the demons.
Every word it ever told me was wrong...
Every prophecy failed...
Yet, what I saw, in the strings of Providence,
I saw, and it came true.
For I have dreamed dreams...
I have had visions.
And some were from God...
But others were from Satan.
And I don't call myself a "Prophet"
But when God speaks to you in your dream,
And seems more like an accuser,
You can see for yourself that it is the voice of Satan.
So, I ask you Christians, not to accuse me.
I am on your side, but am delicate.
Do Not Fight Those Whom God Likes
An obscure story, in the Book of I Kings, Solomon was attacked by Edomites and others. Why? Because David, through Joab, caused the Edomites to be slain. And the Law says we are not to abhor an Edomite, so what Joab did, through David's decree, was evil in the LORD's sight.
So, the LORD stirred up the Edomites against Solomon in the latter part of his days. Which Solomon's reign should have been peace for his entirety. But, we all have a choice, and must follow the Law. Had Solomon worshipped only the LORD and not bowed to Ashteroth or Chemosh or Milcom, he would have had peace within his borders. Had he not sacrificed unto abominations, he would have peace. For, he had peace, and it was broken by his decision to awhore after other gods.
Thus, the sins of his father David stirred the Edomites, whom were unlawfully slain by Joab to the last male, to seek revenge against Solomon and his kingdom, and later divide the Kingdom by God's decree. For Joab ought not have slain the Edomites, but this would have been sheltered from Solomon, had Solomon acted in accordance with God's law. Then, none of this evil would have happened, and Solomon would have had peace until he died.
B. K. Neifert 