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12 Shall horses run upon the rock? will one plow there with oxen? for ye have turned judgment into gall, and the fruit of righteousness into hemlock:

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Jesus is the LORD

I know a man named Jesus.
All about Him.
I know His Father, and His life.
That is Who I believe in.
I don't believe in Biblical Scholars.
I don't believe in Evangelical Fundamentalism.
I don't believe in Theologians' Formulas.
I don't believe in one kind of baptism or communion.
I don't believe in Pastors or what they preach.
I don't believe in a lot of things.

Simply, I think I believe in what Christians always believed,
Until just recently.

I don't believe in John Calvin.
I don't believe in Martin Luther.
I don't believe in Pope Leo.
I don't believe in Bart Ehrman.
I don't believe in Dan McClellan.
I don't believe in any of it.

I just believe in Jesus.

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I Just Don’t Believe Anymore

I see the Christians telling me it is a sin to admonish gays.
I see the Bible---I won't even get into it.
I see the gospel is "Believe and you'll be saved."
I see the wicked flourishing.
I see the righteous poor.
I see people's property is looted.
And God sits by,
As the stars fall,
And allows this suffering.

I know a distant echo of a religion...
It is in my memories,
But this thing called Christianity is not it.
That distant echo I believe in.
But whether God has punished me I don't know;
According to Christians it is a sin to try and seek Him,
And according to Christians it is a sin to desire righteousness.
It is a sin to want to be holy, so I blasphemed. 

I don't know what I believe in.
I believe in Christ's Sermons,
And Paul's Epistles,
And the suffering of Jeremiah and John the Baptist.
I believe in the Martyrdom of Polycarp and Ignatius.
I believe in something...

But what I see the theologians saying,
And what I see the pastors saying,
And what I see the Biblical Scholars saying,
That is not it.

Angel Down an Analysis

The 2026 Pulitzer Prize---aptly awarded this year---we have the main character Bagger, who is a con man, and swindler. Has some sentimentality, and loves Arno, a boy who's young and fighting in the trenches of World War I.

Bagger is a very interesting character. To say the least, I can see he clearly has BPD. The story is one long, compound sentence, and you see in the beginning General Reis gave an order, very explicitly---and this is the reason I perked up to the book---to save the man's life. But, Bagger, in turn, turns it into a mercy killing---which wasn't protocol in World War I---and he goes on convincingly through the rest of the book with this in view, deprecating Reis' character the whole time. When that wasn't the order to begin with, it was Bagger's fabrication. And so convincingly does Bagger tell you this, too. But, we have the order on Page 31 paragraph 4.

Interestingly, Bagger likes to read Tarzan to Arno, and built up a strong friendship, even a genuine affection. Which means he's not NPD or ASPD. He has genuine love for Arno. And when going out, he actually risks his life in Arno's favor, to save the Angel who's caught in the barb wire. This is his first selfless deed, and I see a change in Bagger, having done what is perhaps his first noble thing, even giving credit to his dad as an influence of it. But, he still remembers the order wrong, showing the memory lapse, and how Bagger has skewed his memory so much of Reis, knocking him off the pedestal, in order to lie about him. Which is true for people with Borderline Personality Disorder, is a bad recognisance of events, usually also a misalignment with reality and a distrust for authority figures, as Bagger truly believed he would win a Medal of Honor for such a disgraceful mission. Bagger changed the order to a mercy killing, and when he saw the angel had the likeness of his love affaire, he immediately wanted to save her, and then also took to degrading Reis, and deprecating his desire for winning a Medal of Honor, which coincidentally, is not a medal that a General usually wins. Leading to the more humiliating fact that Bagger is completely wrong about Reis' intents. He just doesn't like Bagger because he recognizes his ignoble character.

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Poems Summer 2026

1. The Rummage Sale

I walk into the Church's sale,
And I sense a lie surrounds me.
Like I am in the presence of seven demons.
To tell the truth, I feel this way,
That there is a lie in the air...
It feels like fire burns through my chest
And a deep depression of hellish sorrows.
Note, when I walk into a Cathedral, 
I ought to feel peace
And the smell of woods and pine.
As a friend once said there should be church dust
And there should be peaceful wine.
But something dark lurks there
I do not know what.

2. The Battle Cry

Through the river, of Zion's shores,
I see the mountain God adores;
Twelve Thousand Furlongs raised to the sky
With golden streets, so I'll be wise.

I see the Nations gathered for war.
I put my armor on, and God has warned
That to flinch in battle, I'll be slain,
Thus I hold to my faith, without feign:

I thrust my spear of the Bible's Word,
I hold my faithful shield and am cured...
My battle is not with you outside,
It is within me, of powers wild.

So, I wrestle the prince I knew
Who holds to darkness, and never few
Are his lies, which in my ears
Makes subtle curses and tells me to fear.

He says to me, "Holiness is sin,"
And he says, "Righteousness won't win."
Thus the stars fall, and at the battle cry
I oil my shield, and so am wise.

On the bloody day, I shall be hid,
When the trumpets blast, and God will win:
My heart and soul and my righteous deed
Shall cleave to Christ for eternity.

3. A Thought

Watching her set fire to her home,
And sit and read silently as it burned...
And seeing myself driven to madness once...
I realize there are many weird things in this world.
It is best not to think of them too often.
The Levite's Concubine was raped, murdered, and mutilated...
Then her mutilated corpse was mailed all over the country...
Let that be enough to dwell on of the world's evil,
Or as Jesus said, "The tower fell, and Pilate mingled human blood in the sacrifice.
"Were these any more wicked?"
Let not your mind imagine too much wickedness.
For there are many strange things in this world...
Too many to count.

(c)2026 B. K. Neifert
All Rights Reserved

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If I am Out of My Mind, let Me Be Out of My Mind for the LORD. For It Will Show in Time that I Am Telling the Truth.

My Process II

8AM - 12PM - I wake up sometime between these hours. I have a coffee. I eat breakfast. I take a shower.

9AM - 1:30PM - I talk with people online. I'm usually in about 4 discussions a day, and I find arguments to refine my writing. I watch YouTube Educational Videos, to find information to write. I watch the news. I spend this time researching.

1:30PM - 2:30PM - I take my first daily walk. I soak in nature, and look at the flora and fauna, and see if there are any poems to be made. Whether in the conversations or the debates or the research. Or out in nature.

2:30PM - 5:30PM - I continue to watch YouTube for educational purposes. I see current events, I probe the culture, I find areas which need critiqued. Also in this time, I may begin writing a poem or two, while I continue to talk to people online, and get feedback. Not all of it's good, but some people come up with some wallops, and I find new avenues to go down in my evangelism. I also read articles online, and do primary source research. Normally at this hour, I'm doing very deep research, and am chasing a rabbit, so to speak. And I usually catch them, too.

5:30PM - 6:30PM - I take my second daily walk. And I usually will look at the flowers, and contemplate the day's ideas. I spend an awful lot of time in contemplation right now, looking for something to do. My walks are in nature, and I find inspiration in nature to write my poetry, or to fully process the day's ideas. I contemplate them very heavily.

6:30PM - 7:00PM - I eat dinner.

7:00PM - 8:00PM - I take my last daily walks, and see the dark growing, and stargaze, or if it's in the summer, I smell the flowers, and I think about the day's activities. I actively find something to write about. I think about the conversations I'm having, and form poems, and generate ideas for new stories and poems.

8:00PM - 10:30PM - I research things on YouTube, and I write. My most fruitful hours are these hours. I may also read the Bible, or a book. I usually am doing deep research at this time, and studying scripture, or reading various books. Or, I'm watching YouTube videos for research. Or debating with people online, to find good avenues for my study.

10:30PM - 1:00AM - I watch a little TV, have a snack, drink some milk, and go to bed.

On Friendship

I will speak short about real friendship. Not the exalted feeling, or a hyperbole. Not the kind mixed with infatuation, or the kind that burns hot.

Real friendship is born from an immediate spark. There is a sense, as soon as you meet this person, that they are important, and will be in your life for a very long time. There is a shared activity, be it bonding over child's play, or a love for math, or a love for science, or a love for philosophy. And receiving this impression, one uniquely bonds over this shared activity.

If it is a spouse, a wife or husband, make sure this activity is not physical. But, the same applies to a mate, you must immediately impress upon yourself the importance and gravity of this person.

And then understand, there will be fights. There will be war among you sometimes. There will be disappointments. There will be calculations, there will be cunning victories won on battlefields of the mind. But, there will also be sweet moments of tender reconciliation.

As, the friend is there for a lifetime. Not merely for a moment. And if you have two or three of them, you have done well and lived well. If this person is your mate, or spouse, then you have won the gift and treasure of life.

And you will separate at times, being hot and cold toward one another. There will be thoughts of deception, of some great competition with this person. That you must best them at a sport you do not quite understand. But, then you separate, and reconcile, and the friendship is renewed.

The friend knows you, so when you change slightly, or are different, they will know your soul, therefore it will not impress upon them that you are a different kind of person, but are the same friend they always knew, with a new perspective on life. You will have changing perspectives, and challenges with this person, and respect them. The friend knows you, and you know them, so when they change, you respect them, and see the person you always knew. Not merely the veneer of opinions and tastes, but rather the soul you were knit with.

It is a rare thing, to find a friend. And sometimes, a friend will separate from you for a short season, and then reunite with you. And you will be honest toward them, and they you, and the nighttime is over, and the sweet conciliation is met with affection.

For a friend doesn't leave you. Years worth of not speaking, opinions changing like the winds and seasons, you still will see the person they always were, and always have been. And there is your friend. Keep at peace with them, and do not forsake them.

On Faith and Math

[There's enough evidence for the Bible to know it's true.] You know, in Calculus, you have enough information to find the answer. If you needed all of it, you'd just keep adding up the sums forever. Sometimes, you have to see the pattern, and [divide] to the right answer.

{}Numbers are not abstractions. They're measurements. And the reason Calculus works, is that the measurements in an infinite series, increase, and it gets calculated out to infinity in what's called a limit. But, you only need one or two ratios to get to the answer, not the entire infinite sum.

Same thing with this, I don't need all the evidence to know the Bible's true. Only enough to complete the pattern.

To get a good idea of it, look at [an infinite sum.] It's just seeing the pattern, you can jump the the conclusion, without all of [the ratios] being used.

And calculus basically takes that same idea, and uses it with trigonometry and formulas which are comprised of different curves through what's called a derivative, to basically do the same thing, and calculate a curve, or the area underneath it.

But generally, a lot of things in life have to be a leap of faith. You can't scratch at all the data, you have to make an assumption, even though it is 100% true.

[Two] looks like a lot of things. {}

I mean, I'm not going to go over number theory{} [it] should have [been] learned {} in third grade. {}[D]oes the word "Dandelion" exist? You know? Or "Atom"[?] That's just semantics. And really a rabbit hole for navel gazers. The fact is, there's a thing, we talk about it, and that's how most things work in the real world.

{}I'm making an analogy between calculus and evidence for the Bible. [It's] asked [of] me, "Do you know all the evidence for the Bible?" I sa[y], "No, but you don't have to, because like in calculus, you can make a leap to the conclusion, with limited information." Then [it's] retorted, "Math is an abstraction." [Then I say] it's not. And then [it's] said, "Show me two."

You see, [this is] mining down to the very basics of ontology. [It's] asking a question irrelevant to the point, of what is a number, when I simply said, you can reason to higher things, with limited knowledge. So, likewise, with numbers, we know what they are. And in calculus, there's a number that a curve relates to. And we calculate that number with limited information. And that curve measures things, and the area underneath it can be used to understand things. Imagine that.

So, the archeology I've found, though not all of it, likewise, shows a pattern of the Bible being true. Like, in calculus, there's a pattern with limited information that shows you the exact measurement of the curve or the area underneath it.

Okay, you need me to explain number theory. That's alright.

So, numbers are a ratio. They relate to things that way, and can be described in geometric figures. And in geometric figures, what is similar, can be augmented or diminished, to create similar number. This works in sets--like two apples---or in side lengths--like in a square side length of two, or area of two, which will have side lengths of square root of two---or in physical energy and waves, like in quanta or heat distribution, it will relate through rate of change, which draws back to the calculus I was talking about. So, that's what number is. Not an abstraction, but a measurement of a countable object.

In logic, numbers follow certain systems, through operations like division, multiplication, square roots, exponents, subtraction and addition. And these can be built on one another, through a variety of ways, to build logic which can describe physical space and time. And the number relates to the ontology of the objects we measure, and the operations on the epistemological conclusions, which can be used to draw comparisons between similar objects and reach new conclusions. Due to equalities.

What I'm doing, is making an analogy between Calculus and the Evidence of the Bible. You said, "Do you have all the evidence." Well, I took an analogy of Calculus, and the logic used in Calculus, which is a prediction of a pattern, to get us to a number that relates to a curve. And I related it to the Bible, by saying I've seen enough evidence for the Bible, to conclude that it's true. Therefore, God exists. In evidence of archeology, philosophy, and textually.

A thing is either true or false. Logic moves from one truth, to an unknown truth.

I start with the evidence I've seen of the Bible being true, and moved to conclude that the Bible was true, therefore it was a witness of God. Since the evidence was true, it must follow that God is too.

You argue semantics too much. Whether a ratio is an abstraction or not, it does nothing for the analogy I made, which you ignored completely.

You asked me, "Do you have all the evidence?" I said, like in calculus, you can have limited information, and reach the right conclusion. Which you said, "Prove to me the number two." And then said, "Number is an abstraction." Number is not an abstraction. Even in ratios, there's a certain law which the numbers follow, which is described by the ratio. That law, is the foundation of reason. Not the numbers, but what the numbers represent. Likewise, the Bible has true evidence, corroborating it as a chain of witnesses, which is why I believe in it.

[So t]he number two is true, where the equality makes it true. So, to answer your question, you need a context for it to be either true or false. And that's how logic works. And that is not an abstraction.

Three Beauties

They are both beautiful in every way.
One, like a Sapphire Blue Bird,
The other a Ruby Mustang.
Their bodies sculpted, and their faces pristine.
Yet, should I be told to choose,
I would go with the Emerald Wolf.
For, the Sapphire Blue Bird is opposite
To me in disposition, but identical in opinion.
And the Ruby Mustang is opposite
To me in opinion, but identical in disposition.
And the Emerald Wolf, though less beautiful to my eyes
Is like me, loyal, and with an eye for beauty too,
Our notions are similar, and our disposition similar.