Reflection on a Dream

In my dreams---as after first taking risperidone I began having dreams---I have a mental symbol of having a dream machine. And in it, I have a dream of owing 100,000,000,000,000 something, and needing to pay 11,000 a day. And my friend was in the dream, looking at all the dreams---the wet dreams, the embarrassing violence,---on a series of televisions. Then, I had enormous pains of hell, dogs biting into my flesh. And I woke up, but was still dreaming, and there was pain in my hand, and I woke up again and was refreshed like I had just had a prophetic vision. When I have a prophetic dream, I wake up feeling loved. Soon I read the parable of the steward who owed his master a great debt, and it was forgiven. And then he went to his friend, and required his debts paid back for by him. And beat him, and threw him into prison. I understood at that moment, I had a great debt, too, of such debt our own Government couldn't afford to bail me out. And I purposed to forgive those who have wronged me--if anyone--and to understand my place in history is simply to enjoy my labors, and work on understanding. As learning is my joy. But for pursuing it, and pursuing my dreams, I had accumulated great debt, which cannot ever be repaid. Thus, I deserve damnation, and will appeal to my God for forgiveness.