Otaku

Am I just an obsessed hobbyist?
Spending hours a day,
Surfing for inspiration...
Is it only money that makes a career?

Music,
Art,
Science,
Literature,
Poetry,
History,
Psychology,
Sociology,
Maths,

For what?

Would I have been better off
Learning how to play a video game real well?
To know nothing about our world?
Twiddle my thumbs,
And I could have made a fortune.
I could have been a good poker player,
Or a good chess player,
Or a good COD player,
Or I  could play pinochle,
Or I could play Fortnite,
Or I could have made a YouTube channel
Where I got really good at Mario or Rome Total War,
And made a fortune?
I could have beat myself,
Made a fool out of myself,
Like a Jackass
And give my exorbitant riches to the poor.

No, instead I chose to grow up.
And am punished for it,
By not being allowed to.