Autobiographical Info

Time Line of B. K. Neifert

July 23rd, 1989 – B. K. Neifert is Born

November 9th, 1989 – The Berlin Wall Falls

September 11th, 2001 – The Twin Towers are Attacked

October 7th, 2001 – The War in Afghanistan begins. A seminal influence in B. K. Neifert's work.

October 26th, 2001 – The Patriot Act is Signed, which brings a decrease in United States' Freedom, and influences Neifert's earliest works, when he notices the decline in American prosperity and freedom.

May 20th, 2003 – The Iraq War is initiated, which Neifert's dad was a heavy critic of, and influenced Neifert's disdain for American overseas interventions.

2005 – Neifert, in the summer leading up to his Junior Year of High School, begins his first attempt at serious writing, as he pens an erotic science fiction novel, and head ways about 50,000 words into it. He never finishes it, and deleted all source copies of the work. But, some of its themes feature in Neifert's earlier works, such as idealized romance; and the “Necromancer” from this early work makes its first appearance in what is possibly the beginning of Neifert's doppelganger theme.

2006 – Neifert begins the Fifth Angel's Trumpet, which was originally from a game in his child's play.

2008 – Barack Obama is elected the First Black President of the United States.

2008 - 2009 – B. K. Neifert is arrested and convicted of two counts of simple assault and two counts of reckless endangerment, spurred by a psychotic episode where he vehicular assaulted two teenagers. He receives treatment for mental illness his entire life, and makes a successful recovery.

2010 – Neifert pens Utopia and 316 of the maxims found in The Wisdom of B. K. Neifert.

2011 – Neifert is inspired to write flash fiction from a Writer's Market Magazine, and does substantial work on A Brief Space Opera. He also pioneers his style which he will use for The Riddle in the Sea, A Brief Space Opera and Solomon's Romance.

2012 -2013 – Neifert has written several unsuccessful essay pieces and quasi cultish pieces, which he never attempts to publish. He also attends college courses at Harrisburg Area Community College, where he takes a fruitful Creative Writing Course and learns about Existentialism and Platonism in Philosophy – He also receives a comprehensive Humanities education, being exposed to the world's most famous art. He also is inspired to write Prestor John and the Children's Crusade when they are mentioned in a Western History Class, which the same professor also assigned reading to Neifert's brother which would later become highly inspirational to Neifert's work.

2013 – 2014 – Neifert makes a full confession of his entire life's history and criminal behavior to a police officer. While awaiting his trial, and the time he'd spend in York County Jail, he finishes The Fifth Angel's Trumpet. How to Write is started.

2014 – Neifert spends 5 months in jail, where he writes the narrative poems which will appear in “What is Poetry” and additional stories for A Brief Space Opera.

2015 – Donald Trump reveals he will run for President, and Neifert, through his political leanings, stays skeptical. Even at some points calling Donald Trump the Antichrist. Neifert also composes his first poetry album, “Bitter Medicine.”

2015 – The Baltimore Riots break out, foreshadowing racial tensions within the United States, over the death of Freddie Grey.

2016 – Neifert is left off his strict probation, and begins writing The Amelia Chronicles. Neifert also watches Yale Courses Online, lectures by Paul Fry, about Literary Theory and develops a comprehensive literary method, which he uses to interpret many of the world's most famous works of literature.

2017 – Neifert writes what is possibly his most significant piece, Hail Britannica. He dreamed the plot, and wrote the entire epic over the course of 2017, using an Encarta Encyclopedia from 2004 as a base for the factual details, and also an Encarta Dictionary to help him look up Etymologies and find German rooted words for his Fairy Tale.

2018 – Neifert composes most of Fairyland, especially the Odes of Brittos, The Ballad of Maddok, Prestor John and The Tale of Subang. He also begins to create the mythology of the Thirteen Kings, compiling them into two early works, one of which is called "Young Shadows".

2019 – Neifert writes The Elf in Manhattan and The Most Bitter Thought which will appear in his third draft of “My Collected Writings.” Neifert also Hand Writes The Tragedy of Joan of Arc (Having severe Dysgraphia from when he fell and hit his head as a four year old, he overcame the disability and hand wrote some of his major pieces).

2020 - 2021 – Covid19 Pandemic brings the Entire World to a Screeching Halt. Neifert uses this time to comprehensively edit his work, and begins “The American Mythology.”

January 6th, 2021 - Protests erupt at the Capital after civil unrest through 2020's Covid Lockdowns, deeply dividing the American public across party lines, and their opinion on Donald Trump.

August of 2021 – The U.S. officially announces Combat Missions end in Iraq, for the second time, and the Taliban regain control of Afghanistan after the U.S.'s disastrous withdrawal under Joe Biden.

24th February, 2022 - The Ukraine War escalates, which began in 2014. For two days the United States people are unified on the War, but conspiracy theories and politics divide Americans on it based across party lines, creating even more fractures within the American Politics.

2022 – How to Write is finally completed. And Neifert also finishes The Amelia Chronicles. And he writes the Prose Mythos. He also writes The Master Key.

2020 – 2025 – Neifert composes thousands of his poems – which he will become known for – including The Odes of Strangers series, The Trilogy of Sonnets, The Three Hyperion Themes and starts to compose his wisdom literature. He also consolidates his smaller, random publications into more comprehensive and polished volumes.

October 7th, 2023 - Hezbollah and HAMAS invade Israel, putting babies in ovens and murdering and raping Israeli citizens. They take captives. The United States people are unified pro Israel, until Conspiracy Theories and Politics divide the people. College campuses begin to form sympathies with HAMAS, Hezbollah and even Al Qaeda, as anti-semites divide with Pro Israel elements in the conservative party, and radical Liberals unify and start to support Terror Organizations.

Late Summer - Mid Fall 2023 - Neifert writes Artemis XX, The Third Reich, Theseus and Brittos, Ayin and Athrin and Cyrus Versus Julius Caesar.

February 2024 - Neifert writes his Manifesto on all his beliefs, beginning to structure a theory about applied language through the study of mathematics.

October 2024 - Neifert reorganizes his books into more polished volumes, and unpublishes half his work, while compiling the other half into more mature, and better crafted manuscripts, also reverting Fairyland and Young Shadows to their original forms, and publishes Hail Britannica as a stand alone work again.

January 2025 - Donald Trump regains office, and begins making many Executive Orders. Also tensions around the world seem to de-escalate, but Neifert stays Skeptical.

February 2025 - Neifert writes Anthem Louise Alcott, and publishes it in a new draft of Bread of Harvest with The Master Key and Prose Mythos.

June 2025 - Neifert rewrites Il Tema, and begins putting together a more polished version of Flirtations with Ate.

June 22, 2025 - Tensions start to escalate across the world, as Iran and Israel engage in escalated warfare; Trump begins combat missions in Iran. Zelinksy is welcomed in Canada, but Trump isn't, showing brewing hostilities across the world, as alliances start to break, and war is almost immanent.

2020 - 2025 - Neifert starts to study Geometry and Geometric Proofs, and begins to apply his skills to develop visual demonstrations of basic maths concepts and also does work on understanding and visualizing Euler's Identity. And uses his knowledge to put forth an argument from design.

2023 - 2025 - Neifert compiles 70 pages of hard evidence proving the Bible's historicity.

2022 - 2025 - Neifert writes thousands of short essays on a Question and Answer Website called Quora.

B. K. Neifert is an autodidact who's honed his craft since 2007. He's written everything from dramatic Space Operas and Chronicle Novels, to Essay Collections and Neoclassical Poetry. He has a firm grasp on literature, which helps shape his stories into finely woven masterpieces. In his repertoire are many epic poems; and a Trilogy (The Fifth Angel's Trumpet) involving conspiracy, romance and hardcore action. Relevant to the day, his books are a critique of modern culture, an exploration of Democratic Socialism and often a scathing critique of The Self. His Essay collections include an attempt to create a universal theory of literature and also a short discourse on how to read poetry. A polymath, Neifert has touched every subject under the sun with his works, and has many visions of tomorrow for readers to discover. His sole labor under the sun is to enlighten readers to the power of a story.

Author's Bio

Brandon Neifert is the author of books including In Defense of the Story, a crowning achievement of autodidactism; My Collected Writings, a medley of various writings on diverse topics; and, The Love of Another, an epic novel starring a rowdy maverick colonel caught between a devastating, fifth world war and the love of his life. Neifert is a self-educated, self-published writer, who, much like his characters, strives for the moral best in both himself and society. A devoted Christian, Neifert was born-again when confronted with a sin from his adolescence that ultimately led to his confession and incarceration as an adult. Neifert has a colorful past, but makes up for it with his scrupulous observations of the human condition, framing both good and evil in ways that even the most skeptical can agree.

Autobiography on My Writing

[W]hen I was young, 19 - 23 I read all the major works on politics and economics. Because I was writing a book that involved politics and economics, and so I wanted to develop a realistic society; I still do that today. I also kept track of current events, and read a lot of history.

I did at 18/19 discover Pi related to a circle’s circumference with a piece of string, quarter and ruler. And I found a way to complete the square when trying to do some math for research in my first book, as I figured out explosive force was quadratic. Which it should be, if the Theory of Relativity is true. I didn’t know the Quadratic Equation at this time. At all.

But then, at 2015 I began to read poetry, like Byron, Wordsworth, or Seamus Heaney’s Beowulf. So I’d be about 25/26 at this time. Which the bulk of my writing was written in the last decade, actually. Some of my best was my earliest, but I have some excellent works in my mature years, too. And this is when almost all my serious poetry was written.

Then about 2020, I saw the world imploding with COVID, so I started doubting my politics, as I saw more and more, conspiracy theories were shaping the narrative—which I intuited at a young age, even around 2010, but it really became fully realized at this time. And in this time I was studying geometry, or had just started doing so. I opened up Euclid’s elements, and started figuring it out. Also, at 30 your mind matures a bit, and you start to see things a little clearer than when you were 19 or 25.

But, yes. I’d think hitting all disciplines at once, has helped shape my writing. Being interested in both the arts and math has kind of helped me be a better writer.

My Conversion from Atheism

I was an atheist off and on for about 6 months. Legitimately, I prayed to God, and said “I don’t believe in you,” and I got back in return “All have alike gone astray, searching after their own things.” Literal thought that went through my mind, I’d never read that in the Bible ever.

So, when I was about 18 into 19 I had a girlfriend. And we were riotous. We were hell on wheels. We were Bonnie and Clyde. We never actually went the whole way, but would get to third base sometimes. But we did that enough. And life was miserable. I couldn’t even remember the day before, let alone my Sunday School lessons from 10 years prior. We didn’t like each other, we cared about each other, but we were a hot mess.

And I was trying to make a Universal Morality. That was my goal, at the Guard shack as I waffled between Atheism and Christianity. It was a real fight. I was really leaning in toward the Atheist side, but really, I was a full blown atheist for a while. Not long… but long enough.

And the reason why I couldn’t be an Atheist… it all amounts to the vacuum left by it. As a philosophy, atheism is morally bankrupt, and can’t really hold anyone accountable. It permits the worst forms of debauchery, and really starves out love. I can’t really eloquently say what I mean, but Atheism destroys the capacity to love and it is extremely selfish. At its root, it will permit anything that the culture allows.

And for one thing, I experimented with homosexuality as a very young boy. So, come to say, I knew it was wrong from having done so. And nobody is going to tell me otherwise. Nothing I ever did that was wrong, wasn’t with the knowledge of it being wrong. And I think the fact that Atheism cannot contend with Homosexuality— at best Homosexuality makes selfish cultures. And I’ve seen it in my own. But, Atheism cannot contend with that. As if you’re atheist, you’re more right to be selfish, and forsake everything and everyone important for your own satisfaction. As there’s no afterlife, or reward or punishment, you might as well treat your friends and family as accessories rather than intrinsic parts of your life.

And I think that is why I’m not an Atheist. Is because it’s too shallow, and cruel, and it doesn’t answer questions about human morality in a way that satisfies me. Like Jesus did.

My Conversion Story

Well… my conversion story is quite fascinating.

From a young age, I was steeped in American Paganism. Santa Clause, Leprechauns, Valentines Day (Cupid), Easter Bunnies, Tooth Fairies, and a little Chinese Zodiac for spice. That was my religion. There on the Chinese Place Mat. And of course Star Wars was real, and Robots were real, and so were aliens—Alf was a real alien on the TV. And I didn’t like Christianity. They taught me in Sunday School, when I was very young, Jesus Loves me. And all I knew about the Bible was that Abraham had lots of children—I thought he bore children with Sarah, literally, the number of the stars. And there were a lot of stars. And of course I thought of George Washington and Abraham Lincoln. And of course I was a futurist… I believed in real robots, the robot at the Hospital where my brother was born, was just like R2D2. It had a conscience just like me. And of course I knew the 10 Commandments, the story of Exodus through Charlton Heston’s portrayal of Moses. Literally, that was all I knew.

Fast forward to about 12 or 13, I had Vacation Bible school, where they went through the Gospels, and then Sunday School. I learned the story of Jesus. And I fell in love with the story of Jesus. I heard His Parables, I heard His miracles, I heard everything. And I fell in love with the Gospel. Now, try to tell me about Paul, I would have resisted it. Try to tell me about the wars in the Bible, or the conquest of Canaan, I would have resisted it. It was just Jesus. As is true for any child, we want the pure teachings of Jesus. You know? With American Folk Religion, it’s a lot like Shintoism, where you do good, and be a good person, you go to the better place. You are a bad person, and you do bad things, they can’t be forgiven. You got to the bad place. That was my religion, and Jesus had the best “Good Place” teachings in the world—of course, He’s God’s Son—that was my religion still. I loved Jesus, but didn’t quite understand or grasp the cross. Because up to this point, I hadn’t any reason to grasp it. I was a good person, to my own beliefs,—despite knowing it wasn’t true, which I assume is also true for lots of other people—and there was no reason for me to need forgiveness. Jesus was a good teacher, so if I stayed good, I’d go to heaven.

Well, then I sinned. You can read all about it. I have no secrets. So, after sinning, I started understanding the deeper concepts of the faith. Like Paul. Why we needed forgiveness, was told by Paul. Because we've all sinned. So, where I would have rebelled against Jesus had I known Paul’s teachings before I sinned, after I sinned, I understood why Paul’s teachings were like that.

So, I became a Christian through Jesus—I had that foundation, on the Sermon on the Mount—but I was a flagrant, and unabashed sinner, from about 8 years old to 25. It just came out in various ways. In the later years as self righteousness and vanity.

So, I’d say I knew I had sinned, and needed God’s mercy, and so I started believing in Paul. Get me to accept the Torah, I needed more time for that. The fact that God told Israel to enslave and destroy entire cultures would be a while, before I understood that. But, that I’ll get to.

So, around I’d say 20 I was really confronted with my sin. Maybe even 21. I had confronted it, and then decided to get into a Messianic Jewish Cult. And started all this sacred name, and observing feasts, and Sabbaths, and abstaining from food. Which taught me about Jewish Culture a lot—so as a fast, it was very educational. I have a root in Hebrew culture, knowing from having lived it, what it’s actually like. Although, at this time, I confessed my sin to a police officer, and ended up on Sex Offender Probation and in jail for five months, and a registry for 10 years. Which, goes to show, being 14 doesn’t mean squat to the police, neither does a repentant conscience. They don’t care. So, just a fair warning to those of you out there thinking they will. They won’t. Just take your lashes, and accept your life.

Then around 23, I went to a Baptist church, who taught me all the Old Testament. And although the Preacher was a very knowledgeable person, we didn’t really mix. We were oil and vinegar. But, he taught me a bedrock of the story of the Prophets. Which comprises about 1/3 of the entire Bible. I had known the Gospel, and Exodus, but didn’t know that, and that was foundational. And when I was in Jail, I listened to Jay Vernon McGee, and he taught me exegesis on the Old Testament. And then a chaplain in there told me to read Galatians, and I realized my Hebrew Roots movement was not what the Gospel was preaching. In fact, Jesus was clear, not to mix the leaven of the Old Covenant with the New. So as I was once in a Subway talking to a gentleman about grace—he was a very mature Christian—I let him eat his pork, because I was acknowledging I was doing a fast. Which taught me a lot… it gave me a great knowledge, and I’d say for anyone who wants to do a fast following the Torah for some period do it, and study the Hebrew Culture, you’ll really identify with it. But also, eat the Calamari at Baltimore. You might never have that chance again.

So, then I found the Apostolic Fathers, and Martyrs Mirror, and The Old Testament Apocrypha, and Mesopotamian History around the time I turned 30… and that’s about the time I started getting it right, and getting it back again. Slowly, I’m turning into the best of all my forms, and hopefully I only grow. Because I think being connected with the faith, in its historicity—studying the Martyrs, ANE history, and the evidence and the Apocrypha and the Church Fathers—I think it connected me back to a faith that, getting to the first part, was in the world around me, I just didn’t embrace it. But, it was the prevailing religion, and everyone I knew believed it. And it made a such better world, and I remember it being without eccentricity, and sober, and also very loving. And I think that was ultimately what converted me, was knowing that love, and associating it with Christianity. As without Christianity, I wouldn’t have known that love.

Now, getting to the Torah, why does God call His people to war? Well, I’ve seen the world grow shallow, and dark, and I think that’s the last lesson on a Christian’s journey. It’s an entire cycle. You know in Star Wars, Luke Skywalker kills Storm Troopers. You know? You know the Empire is evil. It’s just, tasting that evil, you have to understand it must be resisted with bloodshed sometimes. So, you begin to look at youth, and see they are corrupted too, and you realize that there must be a time for war. And it’s inevitable that it happens, so there' isn’t an overwhelming amount of suffering for a particular people. As when righteousness abounds, there’s peace. But, when there’s great wickedness, there’s war. And good people have to fight… and when there is no more good people, the good people have to lay down their lives as Martyrs. As is what happened under Rome.

As Christ said, “I came not to bring peace, but the Sword,” And that, because the sword provides a way for peace to be restored.

But in-between that, you realize that there must be forgiveness, and mercy. That’s where many stop. Is at Jesus, when He’s the beginning. And His second coming at Armageddon is the End, along with His Millennial Kingdom where there cannot be sin.

On Changing My Faith

I’ve changed my religion a few times.

My first faith, was American Paganism. I believed in Astrology, and Santa Clause, and the Easter Bunny, and Tooth Fairy. That was my legitimate faith. I remember arguing with the Sunday School teacher about it, way back when I was a little boy. I believed in Santa Claus and the Zodiacs and things like that.

Well, I somewhere along the line, got into contact with Jesus—metaphorically speaking, but maybe also literally in some sense of the word—and at my new church, we had Vacation Bible School. And I learned about the miracles of Jesus, and the morals of Jesus, and I just loved Jesus. I would sit and listen to His Parables, and I did not like Paul at an early age. At all. I thought Paul was bad, and bad people needed to be punished. Of course. That’s part of my American Paganism. I hated Paul… I remember running around with my fingers in my ear, whenever Paul was discussed. Because, bad people need to be punished. Hell I was just fine with. I liked the concept of Heaven and Hell, and I was like, “Good people go to heaven, and bad people go to hell.” That was my mind made up. The A-Team shot at the bad guys, and the Ninja Turtles beat them up, and Luke Skywalker did too—I didn’t understand why He didn’t just eviscerate Darth Vader… but then Darth Vader turned on the Emperor, and I was fine with that. Darth Vader did his redemption, and I was happy.

Well… I’d soon sin. Everyone probably will know that about me… about 14 I did something very dangerous and stupid, and Paul started making a whole lot more sense at that moment. It was the beginning of my doubt. So, I’d say I became a Christian the moment I realized that I wasn’t perfect. At all. And I converted to Lutheranism.

Well, the Lutherans betrayed me. Here’s that story:

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So, I became a Messianic Jew when I saw some moral agent—as I always wanted to be moral, that was the core of why I became a Christian, was I needed a way to express what’s good. And at that point, I became kind of dangerous, and did another bad thing that was about as stupid and dangerous as what I did at 14. So… I really wrestled with the faith. I wanted moral guidance, but my American Paganism was “Bad guys need to be gotten rid of.” That is just the American Way, and what I did was part of that stupid belief structure, that there were some bad people in my eyes, and they needed to pay. For what? That’s neither here nor there, because soon I’d be convicted of four misdemeanors, and start my psychiatric treatment.

So, fast forward, I found out the victim in my first thing was really upset about it, so upon deliberation and trying to talk to her about it, I realized I probably should pay for this. It’d be better for both of them, so I went and confessed. And at that time, I was highly involved in Pentecostal Churches, but was still primarily Messianic Jewish. I still observed the Feast Days, I still observed the Sabbaths, I still wouldn’t eat pork or shellfish. That’s about as deep as I went with it. Probably wouldn’t have worn flax and wool clothing, either. But I did wear Polyester. And celebrated some Passover meals. And I was beginning to attend a Baptist Church too, and soon after that an Black Church, when I was awaiting my conviction. And then I went to jail, and talked with the Chaplain, and realized I was more or less wrong about the Messianic Jewish thing.

So… I did some soul searching, went to an Evangelical Free Church and a Bethel Church, and met some people who were unique. One was very good, but the whole episode with those churches, I thought I knew a whole lot more than I did. And I’d argue with them, and the pastor, still having my cult tendencies… and I knew some things, but they were very judgmental people, and not very nice. They, I think, got tired of me, and cast me out of the church. So, soon after that I got baptized—as that was a whole issue, I wanted to be baptized and my Lutheran pastor wouldn’t, so she anointed me with oil, but that wasn’t good enough, so I got baptized at the Free Church. And so did my brother on the same day. In fact, my brother was one of the two people who pushed me into the water. And the one guy knew the Didache, and moved the water as I was being baptized.

So… I was without a home… maybe Pentecostal, and kind of mixed up about a whole lot of things. So… I just studied. And soon found the Apostolic Fathers, and Martyr’s Mirror, and received an NRSV from my Mimi with the Apocrypha, and received her old Hymnal. And I was acquainted again, with the faith I knew. And I studied Paul, and for years before that I read John Bunyan’s Pilgrim’s Progress, C. S. Lewis’ Mere Christianity, and St. Augustine’s Confessions. And that gave me some framework, but I think the combination of Jay Vernon McGee having the same interpretation of the Bible, and so with Matthew Henry, and then the striking similarities between my theology and those of the Anabaptist tradition—I’m kind of somewhere between Catholic and Anabaptist.

So, that’s generally where I’m at now… I don’t know which I want to lean toward. Either the Catholic or the Anabaptist—which you’d be surprised how similar both of them are. I think I have an identical faith to Michelangelo and John Bunyan. I’d say that’s my theological bent, is “intelletto”. But, I’d probably be some combination of Catholic and Anabaptist. That’s kind of my faith as it stands right now. And I think I’m comfortable with it. I accept all the traditions of Orthodox Christianity, and don’t really prioritize them, as they all sort of have their strengths and weaknesses, but I’d say Michelangelo is probably the closest to my personal beliefs.

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My Rough Road

That Paul explicitly warns about not needing to observe the Jewish Old Testament Law, I wish I would have learned that in Sunday School instead of how to save the world.

Like, I get it. The world is bad—it really wasn’t that bad, but the church I was at wanted me to solve Global Warming, and poverty and all that nonsense. I mean, it was good… I used it as a muse to develop Psuedo-technologies for Sci-Fis, but generally, I should have been learning solid theology and foundational Christianity.

At about the time I was fourteen, that’s when you really need to encounter Paul. Christ is for a young child, you learn Him, and build the foundation, but Paul’s for a teenager, because by about that time you’ve made some big mistakes, and need to learn the lesson of Christianity, which is we all fail, and need redeemed. At about 30 you need to learn Moses, and the time for War, and the harsh realities of life, that it’s not candy, and sometimes morality is ugly. Which, you know, we know when we watch TV the bad guy gets it, but we need to know what war is by 30 because that’s when we have the most mature reason to understand it.

But, I’d say around 14 I needed to be taught Paul and Song of Songs, and some of the other epistles. As I was not fully aware of what Christianity was by the time I got sucked into a well meaning, but destructive Messianic Jewish cult. I mean, the man who taught me, taught me a lot about Judaism, and I respect the ideas of the Covenant, and the Sacrifice and all that other stuff… it let me understand the Old Testament, from having lived it. But, to be forced into it, or to think I needed to do those things to be saved, really that’s why I needed a better teacher in my youth, who could teach me Sunday School.

Instead, he taught me the Bible was a bunch of stories, and even theologians say so, which made me disdain theology with a passion, if it could teach you that about the Bible. As I had bad influences all around me, and I needed the tools to combat it. As, I dealt with true spiritual forces, and I needed to know the good. And I needed to know Paul at 14 and 15 and 16 instead of about Feminism, Global Warming and how to solve Poverty. Which, you know… it got me thinking about those things, but I’m in no position to fix any of that. I would have been better off with a sound theological framework so I wouldn’t get sucked into a cult. Because I really wanted the morals, to fight back the evil that was surrounding me, and wanted to make me a prey.

So, he taught me some good things… in Sunday school my teacher taught me to help the poor. That’s foundational to who I am, and I’m thankful for that, just like the Cult Leader taught me about Judaism… so it worked for the good. I have a very deep theological depth, so quite inadvertently these traps sprung on the devil, and made me far more aware of the true religion, and capable of understanding it.

So, I’d never say either of them were bad people… they’re not… they’re just mistaken on opposite ends. One’s a secular Christian, the other a Messianic Jew, and they taught me dual things about the faith… but the meat and potatoes wouldn’t be taught to me until I was in jail, when the Chaplain told me to read Galatians, and I heard Jay Vernon McGee sermons on the radio, and found he had identical readings of the book of Jeremiah. Which, backtrack, was prepped in me by a Baptist church I was going to, but that’s a whole other story. I think he tried to tell me, but the damage was already done, and he might have called the authorities on me, because I used the wrong name… he was kind of a weird dude, too.

So, anyone who cries about abuses in the church, I don’t think I ever had a religious leader who taught me anything close to resembling the truth, except Christ Himself, and I’ve always somehow figured it out, and I guess that’s the Holy Spirit in me teaching me as I go… and I’m really understanding the concept of the Law’s Abolishment, that all things that condemn you, are abolished in the cross, so it leaves you with hope to become a better person.

On the good side, however, I had great Sunday School and Vacation Bible School until the Lutheran Church became secular. I had a good catechism teacher. And at the Baptist church I was going to, I learned fundamental theology from the Pastor, and had a good Sunday School, who I think were the authorities in question, called in to deprogram me from whatever cult I belonged to... which I'm a little miffed at actually because I think they hindered me in many things, and no such apparatus ought to exist in a free country. But, that's generally the fact. I appreciate what they taught me in the realm of apologetics, though. But, generally, the spying and all that other crap needs to stop, as the person who was in that cult and taught me is harmless. He just believed something eccentric.

Reflection on a Dream

In my dreams---as after first taking risperidone I began having dreams---I have a mental symbol of having a dream machine. And in it, I have a dream of owing 100,000,000,000,000 something, and needing to pay 11,000 a day. And my friend was in the dream, looking at all the dreams---the wet dreams, the embarrassing violence,---on a series of televisions. Then, I had enormous pains of hell, dogs biting into my flesh. And I woke up, but was still dreaming, and there was pain in my hand, and I woke up again and was refreshed like I had just had a prophetic vision. When I have a prophetic dream, I wake up feeling loved. Soon I read the parable of the steward who owed his master a great debt, and it was forgiven. And then he went to his friend, and required his debts paid back for by him. And beat him, and threw him into prison. I understood at that moment, I had a great debt, too, of such debt our own Government couldn't afford to bail me out. And I purposed to forgive those who have wronged me--if anyone--and to understand my place in history is simply to enjoy my labors, and work on understanding. As learning is my joy. But for pursuing it, and pursuing my dreams, I had accumulated great debt, which cannot ever be repaid. Thus, I deserve damnation, and will appeal to my God for forgiveness. 

On My Writing

The hardest part, was when I was a bit younger, I had absolutely terrible prose. It’s still not the best—so people say, but I have a PA Dutch roll where I poetically inflect things, and use generative syntax.

But, just developing a style people would read.

The Love of Another, took me 10 years to finish. My first drafts were word salad, but I edited that work about 100 times. I just kept editing it, and editing it, learning.

So, I had a short story about the World War IV in my collection. And my other novel was consistently being edited as I worked. And my dad had a hand in editing it, too, but he got Then and Than completely mixed up. But, he did a pretty good job.

But I could see the difference in my short story. It was just rough. A lot of verbosity that didn’t need to be in there, a lot of function words… I edited it about 7 years after I wrote the thing. That one my uncle read, and said it was terrible. And it was… it was poorly written, but I had to come into my style.

Well, I had an English Teacher as a friend, and we argued consistently about my style. Well, to prove her wrong, I wrote a story called The Riddle in the Sea, where I used no Helper Verbs, Adverbs, Pronouns or Conjunctions. In the Dialogue I did. And… lo and behold, that act of rebellion improved my writing style immediately. It made my style more concrete.

So, I’d say finding my voice was the hardest hurdle, as I had the ideas. I was very structured—the English Teacher friend said my structure was perfect—and I had the ideas. I just needed to clean up my language.

I’d say also an 051 English Course, that just went over all the basics of syntax and punctuation, helped a lot, too. It just taught me to use commas, and semicolons, and colons, and em dashes… So I just got better progressively.

And I’d say Hail Britannica helped too. I wrote a first draft, and went over the entire thing, replacing Latin and French words with German and Old English words. Which helped crisp my language a lot. Which, that work I actually dreamt before writing it. So it is the proper Epic Poem, like John Bunyan’s Pilgrim’s Progress.

Which, funny story about that Epic Poem, I had a vision or something, of a friend who was going to give me a Dream Machine. This shows up in my writing. And I had a conversation about the book before it was ever written. And in the vision, it was a chalice of blood that I had to drink, that I don’t remember drinking (The Cup of the LORD’s Wrath). But, in real life, I walked back through my hallway, and prayed not to receive it. And my friend disappeared. So, I still have this dream spirit attacking me—I think it was a curse—but like John Bunyan’s Pilgrim’s Progress, it is also prophetic.

Which, the Lord says in Isaiah:

21 Therefore hear now this, thou afflicted, and drunken, but not with wine:

22 Thus saith thy Lord the Lord, and thy God that pleadeth the cause of his people, Behold, I have taken out of thine hand the cup of trembling, even the dregs of the cup of my fury; thou shalt no more drink it again:

23 But I will put it into the hand of them that afflict thee; which have said to thy soul, Bow down, that we may go over: and thou hast laid thy body as the ground, and as the street, to them that went over.