Though you are ashamed, broken, nobody loves you… no job, no car, no money… only people who tolerate you… know every life is a gift. Share good news with them every day—of Christ’s gospel—and eat your meals, if you can. Enjoy your labors, if you have them. If not, find labors. Cherish wisdom, and cherish truth. Love those you speak to on a daily basis, and do them no wrong. Forgive them when they are boring, or cruel, and bless them with your time and tongue.

Cherish your brother, and your sisters, and cherish your father and mother. Cherish your animals who share your company, and your grandparents. Cherish your friends, and cherish your enemies—for your enemies hate you, so give them every reason to stop. Love your enemies, and heap warm coals under their beds, to warm them at night, and speak blessings over them numerous, and though you die sheepishly at night, with nothing and no satisfaction… know life was a blessing.

It is a blessing because we eat our food, we drink our drink, we laugh, we keep company, and if we do not these things, at last, there is the sweet savor of death which will sweep us away into eternity.

Every day is a blessing, because you have the chance to teach yourself something new, speak something to someone they never knew, eat a brilliant meal, drink a brilliant drink, love someone you never loved, and forge friendships in fires of strife and hardship. And though friends hate you, and family, and society… they give you not an inch of your desires, and you suffer long… there is a world awaiting you, eternal, and a kingdom of 12,000 furlongs of golden Plateau. And there your heart will long, while you live to understand that moment you leave. But do not leave prematurely… seek the wisdom you can in life, to call others to that glorious mountain.

Law is meant to bring death. That is true. The Law’s purpose is to put everyone under condemnation, but if you held yourself to the Law’s standard, you yourself would be destroyed. {} You need Mercy toward everyone. So, you have a choice… bring to the bear every infraction against the law, and thereby bring condemnation on yourself. Or forgive, and receive mercy. It’s not your job. It’s God’s job. If you be a witness, then so be, but let your mind be freed from [punishing wrongdoers].

The sage looked upon the little student, and told him, "Memorize this cant, and it shall tell you all the world."

The student said, "Surely I will remember it."

The sage then said,

"In all things, there is a sense to language. In all things, there is a sense to number. It is what's real, which we describe, and therefore, are able to teach. The King is God's shepherd upon the Earth, making laws so men can feed freely, making the waterways, and building the ports and roads. The king's greatest tools are these two: The proper definition for words, and for the people to not be interfered with on their business. To the great east, there is Asia, to the south there is Africa and to the west there are the Americas, and to the north there is Europe. The four Oceans, the Atlantic is murky, the Pacific clear, the Indian is placid, and the Arctic cold. The stars a for the seasons, to tell us the times. The moon and sun too. Do you understand?"

The student said, "I do."

The sage concluded, "Then, let your curiosity go forth, and let your mind be fruitful, and your fields ripe, and your thirst for knowledge never quenched."

Dear,
God

You are good, I know. That is the whole reason I believe in You. I read Your Bible every day. I don't know why my life is so hard. I look at scripture, and I follow its rules. It never seems to work for me. But, I know that You are good.

I've asked for a wife and a book deal, and to be good at doing work. None of that has happened. I have no wife, I have no book deal, and I break down every time I do my work. But, I know that You are good.

When I see Your Son, speaking what He did, and when I read Genesis, and see the awesome and complex stories... I know there's an intelligence beyond my own at work. So I know that You are good.

I have schizoaffective disorder, and paranoid thoughts. I have delusions of grandeur. I see my whole world crumbling around me. But I know that You are good.

I am afraid of being captured, and tortured for crimes I did not commit. I have demons attacking my thoughts. But I know that You are good.

LORD, You are like a Husband to me, or Your City like a Hephzibah. And though the world isn't the way I want it to be, and though everything falls apart in my hands, and I am poor, and I tremble... I know the world was better when people believed in You.

As the Gnostics say, Sophia came and corrupted what was good, and the whole world revels in that. I don't like Sophia. I like Christ. I like Your Daughter Zion, the Holy City. I like good things, and I like peace, love and joy.

I don't know why You gave me over to such hardships, and never rescued me. I don't know why I have to have these thoughts, but I'm with You till the day I die. I guess I have to trust in You, and only You, and understand life's broken into four pieces.

I am in trouble, LORD, with myself. Only with myself. I have nothing, and a life filled with evil. I have done what I didn't want to do. LORD, if I go to hell, if I have nothing, if I am lonely, LORD, You are still good. Though I descend into the abyss, I know You are good. Let those who hate You understand, every good thing they ever had, every peace imaginable, came from You, and that if they follow their hearts, they shall suffer.

LORD, deliver me from all evil. And feed me my daily bread. Let me forgive those who've sinned against me. And forgive me of my sins, too. Your kingdom come, Your will be done, on Earth as it is in heaven. Lead me not into temptation. For, Yours father, is the Kingdom, Power and Glory. Yours, Father, not mine.

Keep me from all harm, and save me from the plans of Satan. For I meditate upon Your law day and night. Yet, if You do not... and deliver me to my worst fears, You are still God, and I am not. I am a man, and a sinner. Though I worship You, and commit my ways to You, and dole out my bread to the hungry, and clothe the naked, and visit the prisoner, and console the widow... though I am kind to all I meet, and pray for my enemies... LORD, deliver me from my enemies, for it is Your promises. And I love Your law, that is why I do what is right. For no other reason. You are attentive to the prayers of those who desire to fear Your name. I commit myself to You, I have compassion on the poor, I desire to fear Your name... LORD, do not leave me on my sick bed, but fulfill Your promises toward Your servant. Deliver me from the ones stronger than myself. I can do nothing... LORD, and faithfully walk according to Your statutes, Yours, because they are good. Do not be like a liar to me... For then the nations would cease believing, yet You still are good, and I am not. And though the whole world stop believing, You are still God. Yet, deliver me, LORD, and graven me into Thy Palms.

For You say the Meek shall inherit the Earth, and the meek are like horses, tamed and broken. And the Mad Philosopher crumbled seeing the Stallion broken by men... but it was the worldly philosophy he created that broke the wild and free. For Your Law is utter mercy, and forgiveness, and the statute abolished so we can be at peace. For, to live by Grace and Love and Thy Law, brings wellsprings of peace. For the Meek are Spineless, and are led by a rope here and there, though being mighty and powerful. They cannot but do what they are conditioned to do... they know not their power. So said a mad prophet to me once, in a vision. And he, I'm afraid, is the one who clipped my wings of freedom, and bound me to the dust. Lift me up, Oh LORD, lift me up, and mount me on Eagle's Wings. Revive my Youth, for I wait patiently upon You. Let me sprout wings, and fly away from the tempest, and be knitted to You in truth.

For when I was in heaven, I saw Your peace... and I came back to this world to bring the Earth to You. For You are good.

I only ask, You keep Your mercies toward me.

Devil, you need God's power to be good. We know right from wrong innately. That's not what God is for. Abraham had to be shown God does not demand human sacrifice, as the Amorite Religion required it. Except once, through God's Son, which God says Jehovah Jireh. He will provide. But our conscience bears witness to that, and the Bible bears witness to our conscience.

Slavery is a kindness on those who cannot understand or know how to take care of themselves. Or it's there to reprove the wicked for their crimes. It also was the only way to keep large cities fed. We don't need it now, as we have industrial machinery.

God talks more about charity than anything else. That's why I believe.

The wars God caused man to fight brought peace, though. Sin grows too severe sometimes, where the next time, God will have to destroy it Himself, like He did in Noah's day. But in Moses' day, He delivered the people of Israel through the beach, and defeated Pharaoh, and caused the next generation to war with Canaan, as they were in deep sin, which caused deep suffering. In Christ's day, He died and raised, and persuaded the entire Roman empire, through the peace of His servants' righteousness. But now, we cannot war anymore. We have to win through persuasion. Like it were in Rome, again, and maybe by our own blood.

We don't know who burns in hell. God is Judge not I. No, I don't know who's going to hell. Or who's going to heaven. Nobody does. The nations will join themselves with Israel, so there's no way to tell. God's Word is extolled above even Himself, so those who love righteousness, I believe have grace, so long as they find Christ, and His power. There is one name, and all other roads are wicked. There is only one gate, but few shall find it. I believe righteousness compels the LORD to find you, though, and move all things to bring you to Him, and gather you, as a Hen does its flock.

But He resurrected, confirming His witness. Josephus names His brother, James, dying for the testimony that Christ raised from the dead. Not to mention, myriads of Church history--we know a lot about the apostles--they died believing too, having met and ate, and lived a very intimate and close life with Him. And they saw Him ascend. And Thomas put His hands into His wounds, being slain by red hot irons after not perishing in a furnace. So it could only be Christ. That's confirmation of His moral teachings.

The Gospels are the evidence. They're more reliable and closer to the source than Plutarch. And we have far more manuscripts to compare and understand, and make a complete documentation of the scripture. We know this through Papias who it was who wrote the Gospels of Mark, Matthew and John, and Luke we know accompanied Paul, who knew James, Peter, John and through John Mary.

Well, consider, if you weren't going to hell, the LORD would draw you to Himself. You couldn't be removed even if Satan employed Seraphim to blaspheme God's holiness through your prophetic organs. Which Satan has done, as I've witnessed through reading about the martyrs. If the LORD has chosen you, He knows your heart already, and will save you because He has instilled His righteousness within your heart, and has proved you love His law. There is no work, but a change of heart. The LORD is sovereign, and is the one Who causes change.

It's not your deeds, but your state of heart. Hell happens because you've rejected the Holy Spirit, and cannot have a share of God's righteousness, nor His peace. If you cannot have God's peace, where will you go? What will you have? God is the source of all good. So you ultimately can have no good if you choose to reject Him.

There's no work in heaven. It's a restoration of Eden, with Hephzibah as your Eve or for women the LORD as their Husband, and the Lord's Mind, Soul and Spirit so you can never have any more sin. You become like God, and have power to judge, and are made into clans and nations. It's the restoration of the mistake made by Adam and Eve, only saved through Christ, and given a resurrected form like Himself.

[I]nfinity is a difficult concept. Like, calculus assumes an infinite to divide and get a correct solution--which is a lot like how I understand faith to be.

Like, it's just so hard for people to understand. You can have infinites in one dimension, that are smaller than infinites in two, which are smaller than infinites in three... and so forth. I think everyone should take a basic Algebra class, to understand that stuff.

But, why we know Christ is LORD, is what He spoke. I learned for 30 years--since I was 5--and was in intensive education, first in school and then on my own. Jesus had none of that. He was from Galilee, poorer than you know. We have houses unearthed in Galilee, they'd be the size of my living room. The Psalmist says He had no bed, and was thrown out of His house. He was homeless... and kind of struggling mentally with that, too. You see He's stressed out in His ministry, but He always keeps composure. He's not Schizophrenic at all. I am... but He's not. He's fully cognizant and in a time without medications, so His condition could only get worse and not better if He were crazy. And nothing shows that He was. Not anything we've seen about Him. And He was just an extremely gifted human being. Fully salient, fully in His right mind, and performing miracles. Jesus is the Son of God, for those reasons.

I think this is what true Christianity looks like. I don't think he's boasting at all, but signaling what it means to genuinely repent. I deleted a ton of bootlegged songs--about 1000--I stopped playing violent video games, I stopped cussing for the most part--sometimes one slips--I stopped masterbating and watching porn--now the Lord gives me dreams which I don't like, but some have been prophetic, I guess my shadow has to be purged there, where it's lawful--I can't watch movies practically, unless they're utmost pure, like the Wizard of Oz. I did watch 8 Crazy Nights recently, and About Time. I hide my eyes at the nudity and fast forward through the sex scenes. I mean, I'm not hyper vigilant and so afraid to sin that I despair every time I do it... But I do think this is what it means to be saved. And also to have a charitable heart for giving, and showing kindness as it's not just about what you don't do, but also how you care about other people.

But some things I've stopped doing also--that many Christians do--is judging and prophesying and using spiritual curses. I think Christians do this, and it's akin to black magic, when you cast and heap judgment on people. You are taught to do this, by reading the Old Testament, but Christ frees us from that curse, and our job isn't to yoke believers or unbelievers to that curse, but unyoke them and yoke them to Christ.

True salvation is marked by not wanting to sin. Like, it hurts to do it, and you just don't want to. Also an unwillingness to use deception, or lie, and cheat and steal. And also self sacrifice, willing to risk yourself if it means helping someone else. And being open and vulnerable, as Christ was an Open Conservative.

So, I think Christians judge a lot, and condemn, and vilify, and especially are antagonistic against Creativity. Like, it's either "Holy of Holies" or "Profane." There's no Michelangelo or C. S. Lewis or Tolkien allowed anymore. William Blake is Anathema, and only the Bible exists to teach us. That's simply not true... you need to derive correct analysis of the Bible to help you interpret other people, but generally, you learn a lot from other people, and reflecting what they say through the Bible. And embracing when they might have a clear point.

Like I learn a lot from Emily Dickenson. About a stale faith, that tortured people with what it forbade, and didn't let people express their creativity or be a little bit different. That's just as bad as a faith that lets every conceivable thing happen, so long as it's not breaking the State's Law, it doesn't matter. The Bible is a higher law, reflected in the conscience. It's not a legality, but a reflection of man's natural state of Justice. And I think we can go a little overboard with it, which is why I think the Bible can be unproductive for some people's faith, and a hindrance to it.

But, Isaiah's faith is exemplary. I wouldn't fault him for trying to live righteously, or anyone for that matter. That's why we have the Bible in the first place.

34 And Simeon blessed them, and said unto Mary his mother, Behold, this child is set for the fall and rising again of many in Israel; and for a sign which shall be spoken against;
35 (Yea, a sword shall pierce through thy own soul also,) that the thoughts of many hearts may be revealed.

This is a word given to Mary in the Christmas Narrative, and Simeon blesses Mary by saying the child is set for the fall and rising of many in Israel. What that means, is they fall and  sin unto death, but then rise and come up with Salvation. But many shall speak against this sign. And it shall be a sword that shall pierce through Mary's own soul. And also ours, we shall be divided, but our sin cut off like through a circumcision knife. And whatever the true thoughts of man are, they will appear when the true Gospel is being preached. And whatever their reaction, that is the thoughts and intents of a man's truest heart. So if a savor unto death, it is death, and if vile the heart of man is vile. But, if blessed, and not blasphemous, it is a light in the soul and a lamp to the feet.