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I am an Autodidact, who’s written a number of books, published and for sale on Amazon.com. I am a poet. A philosopher. A bible scholar. A hobbyist mathematician. Know subjects ranging as far as Psychology, Sociology, History and the Humanities. I do literary theory, and wrote everything from novels, to epic poetry to short stories, and as you can see several thousand essays on Quora.

I don’t have any degree or qualification that makes me an expert, beside the often mocked, “School of Hard Knocks.” Which, is you, my readers, always giving me good responses and heavy dialogues so I can hone and nurture my subjects, and improve the quality of my craft. Thank you, by the way, I always love open debate and learning from you. To say I have my college major in it, is a little tongue and cheek, but some people have no sense of humor, I get it.

I have Schizoaffective Disorder, but may shorten it to Schizophrenia so people understand. Schizoaffective Disorder is Psychosis and elements of Bipolar—depressive type for me personally. It’s a hard fought battle to keep myself afloat. But, I’ve written poetry about fighting and beating my inner demons (Metaphorically Speaking), and that’s what Fairyland is, is my battle with my illness and also my battle with the corruptive influence of the opinions of others.

I believe in the true Gospel, of being a good person, and using Jesus as a shield to help fend off the weapons of Satan. And also His blood for forgiveness, as I’ve committed miserable sins in my life—we all have—but I’ve wrestled with the Principalities of the Air, and took the armements of faith, and have fought hard against them. I will not know who won, until the dust settles, and I hear the LORD say, hopefully, “Well done good and faithful servant.”

I believe strongly in the moral teachings of Christ, and believe in the Old Testament as judgment against sin. And I believe in mercy for sinners, but also justice needs to be paid. I just think God’s the bringer of Justice, and not man, and that there comes a point in a man’s life where punishment needs to be relinquished. And that’s the Gospel, is forgiveness for a hope of Salvation, so you can be a better person.

Finally, you’ll see me talk about the subjects I’m well versed in, and I am glad to admit I know nothing but Christ. So if you find something wrong, it’s just from memory and looking it up online, and looking at the articles.

God is good. That is why we ought to believe in Him. That’s core to why I’m a Christian, is the world’s not good, but God is. So I know Him. As the LORD said, “Let no man boast in wisdom, strength or riches, but let him boast in this, that He know the LORD.” So, I admit I know nothing of what I say, beside the LORD and the ethical truths He’s instilled, and through that I retain my judgment to answer these questions, that the LORD through Wisdom gives me understanding, and nothing more. And if all should fade away, and every answer be silly to the world, I gave my best to answer, as the LORD can turn the wisdom of the wise foolish, so if He establish me, then so be it. For I know naught but Him.

More Thoughts on on P = NP

You essentially would be looking for a magic solution to everything. Just based on geometry, you can't solve P = NP. It's taking a Nondeterministic Polynomial and making it into a Polynomial. That's what it's saying. You'd need to break geometry to do it. Even getting to finite solutions on your prime factoring, and always checking them, requires an entirely different species of math than other things it would be used for. It is generalizing a formula for all forms of geometry. That simply can't happen. It's why a Circle is different than a Square and a Square is different than a Rectangle. It's just based on different observations of shapes, which finding a way to see if a thing is solved in all cases cannot be generalized, because every formula is a different shape, essentially, rooted in that specific problem.

Another Midrash

LORD, You are creator of man, and beast. You are supreme above all other living things. You make the waves, and they do not transgress the bounds. They are turbulent, and rage, and destroy, for LORD, You are wrathful with the sons of men. They have transgressed Your holy covenant, and taught mankind to speak lies. Where shall the seed of the blessed reside? Is it not in your golden palaces and streets? Shall they drink the honeycomb and milk? Shall they eat the bread, the manna from heaven? Shall they drink the waters which are alive? Shall they eat the fruit of life? Yes, LORD, if they continue in well doing, and doing what is good. They shall have a spirit to call upon You. If not, they shall forget You and Your law, and cast it behind them. Their conscience shall be seared, and they will be lionesses searching for prey, and dogs eating the dung, and tearing the bodies in the war. They shall be the fowl above, the vultures and eagles, eating the strings of bloody carrion, which lay rotten from the dead waste. That shall be the inheritance of those who dishonor Your statutes and make not the Law their delight.

18 the Golden Age

18 is actually a good age, because your brain becomes more cognizant and aware of itself. It’s a good age to grow up, there’s biology involved with that, too. You’ve heard of the “Freshman 15” right? That’s part of it. The body reaches peak sexual maturity at that age, and also the brain begins to gather a sense of other. Any later, you could stunt people, any earlier you could make them grow up too fast. Just like shortly after turning 30 you reach the peak of your maturity, and can correctly guide other people. It’s just a mental maturity, it happens really fast, over the course of a few weeks. Like my squash growing out on my deck, it took one day for little nubs to turn into a full grown flower. In about two or three days they’ll turn into squash. Things happen very quickly, and not doing the right kind of pruning or preparation at the right time can kill the plant. It’s very precise. It’s the same with people, our stages of development are kind of understood historically. In most cultures 18 is the age people came out into society, and were presented as fully formed members. Just like a child can grow a foot and a half in a couple of months.

On Real Witchcraft

There is no “Meal infused with witchcraft.” So, the curse will not fall upon you. Just look at the hearts of those you dine with, if they are with you. If not, they will curse you with their hands, and seed hatred in your brethren. As that’s the only witchcraft. They will fill your mind with evil, and not good. They will cause you and tempt you to do what is not right, in order to have evidence against you, and testify that you are wicked.

That’s the only witchcraft. Which, if you give to the poor, and have a charitable heart toward your neighbor, and love your brother and do not slander him, even though you’ve sinned, you will be delivered.

Today

The birds eat the mulberries...
And it is okay, for they farm them
Looking at the branches, and monitoring it
Waiting for the berries to ripen.
I received a few fruit, but when strong
The Mulberry Tree will produce many fruits.
The turtle crosses the road faster than I'd
Ever seen a turtle run, and is unharmed.
The hot summer day is a good day to mow grass.
The squash are growing,
Before they shoot out their flowers;
They are little tender nubs now.

On Feeding the Multitudes and Finding a Meaning in It

Some things aren’t filled with ulterior meanings. It’s just Christ was a miracle worker, and increased the food for the multitudes. Basically, you could take that to mean that if you’re wealthy to feed the hungry. Of course, Jesus did it twice… you’d wonder why He didn’t just do that all the time. But, He healed many diseases, too. He also cleansed the temple twice.

I guess, the two times He fed the multitudes, is a metaphor about timing. How, to do the right thing in the moment, rather than trying to do everything haphazardly, but to do the good deed you have in front of you. And only that, since it’s in your purview. As a lot of people believe they have to go out looking for good to do. No… let Jesus be your guide, it will find you if it’s in your capability. And if it is, do it.

Another Midrash

Eve tempted Adam to eat from the fruit after being tempted by the Serpent, and God set forth a redemption plan, to have her seed crush the Serpent’s Head, when he bruised the Seed’s heels. That Abraham had a son, Isaac, and was called to sacrifice him, but God stayed His hand, and told Abraham He would provide the sacrifice and that Abraham’s seed would bless all the nations. That Jacob wrestled with God, and prevailed, and received the blessing that the deliverer of the World would come from his seed. That Moses led the Children of Jacob out of Egypt, and into the Wilderness, and then Joshua, his predecessor, conquered the land of Canaan after Moses died. That David, the King of Israel, was issued a decree that he would have a seed that would sit on the Throne of Israel forever. That this Seed is God’s Son, made manifest in the Flesh. That He came and lived a perfect moral example for us to follow, and set down a Law so magnificent, it is superior to 30 sages. That He died and raised from the Dead, and His followers witnessed Him raised from the dead, and died believing it, sometimes unbelievable deaths. That He will return one day, being born of Zion, and be swiftly called up to the clouds, and return with 144,000 saints to slay all the sinners of the world at Armageddon. That He will live and reign on the Earth for 1,000 years, and then defeat Satan and Death in the Battle of Gog and Magog, by consuming the hordes numbered greater than the sands of the Sea with fire. And then He will marry New Jerusalem, which descends from the clouds, and is a city more glorious than we can imagine.

Paul the Flower

Walking through the forest,
I realize, there were a yellow wild flower
And a grey Mushroom.
The flower was a thick petal
Chubby and fat, like a maid's skirt.
The mushroom round circled on the head
And curved up, with a brown top and thin stem.
I realized, Paul was like the Flower
So tall, and educated and elegant,
Knowing Epimenides and Homer
And Plato and such.
The other apostles like the mushroom
Short in stature, earthy and inedible.
An educated Pharisee must be chosen 
By God, to bring the religion to its zenith;---
And chosen and elected, a once persecutor of the church.
So also the Holy Spirit can minister through our learning.