The Holy Bible

No Santa Clause dawns its pages
But a truth about life, without illusions.
People suffer, and especially the good.
There are very few happy portraits
In the holy scripture, but rather mourning
At every page, and war... even love is strife.
"Vanity vanity", thus let me mourn here
A little while, and hate my life.
So I may enter into a better Earth 
And better Heaven, where I can have
My sweet and fat; and holy laughter.

A Rare Beauty

A rare beauty indeed,
In intelligence, and body and face and form
And in her personality, too.
She makes me question,
When seeing women who pale in comparison
Having to maintain their own looks---
They are not too smart,
They are not too beautiful,
They are not too  good for marriage;
I realize she is superior,
Thus, I will not shame her inferiors anymore.
She talks of her cohort's self deceit
And I say, "Let them be a little deceived
"If you are the standard."

If I Had To Flee

If I had to flee into another land
And could only take what I may carry...
I'd take Six books.
My Mimi's NRSV Bible with Apocrypha
My copy of Martyr's Mirror by Thielman Van Braght
My copy of the Apostolic Fathers translated by J. B. Lightfoot
And Mimi's Hymnal.
Last, I'd take my book of North American Wildlife and my  Bird Book,
Given to me by my Mimi and Pop Pop. 
For nature is God's scripture, too.

John the Elder is John Son of Zebedee.

On Calvinism

We're nothing without Grace. We need God's power in order to do good. We can make distinctions about what "Choice" means, but God foreknew what our choices would be. He sealed us according to His predestined election of grace. That's not to say that man has no choice--in fact, pure free will and pure determinism both can exist in accordance with each other--God's divine knowledge is omniscience. He knows everything, and every choice we're going to make. So, He predestined us according to divine election.

However, "Once saved always saved" is also not true. There's people who taste of Spiritual Fruits and fall away, and they can never be reconciled. There are those who are written into the book of life, and are then again blotted out. There's also lost sheep and prodigal sons, who being blotted out, can be written back into the Book of Life.

But, God knows who that is, already. It's just our desire, to ask and fear God enough to write our names, and seal us, and predestine us. And to him who knocks, it shall be answered.

Which gets to total depravity. We have no power to be good, in of ourselves. Only the situations God creates can keep us out of hell. We'd be steamrolled by Satan if God didn't restrain Him. So, all our righteousness proceeds from Grace, and nothing else. And through our understanding of Christ's teachings, we move closer to Him, but through loss of desire for fear, we lose our reward. But, God knows beforehand who those who walk with Him in truth are.

So... it's hard to say. It's beyond our own understanding, but truthfully, as light and shadow exist, so does free will and determinism.

Worlds

Every person you meet,
Has within them a life experience.
It constructs within them
Their knowledge...
Suffering to suffering
Joy to joy...
The world around them becomes.
Many sins lead to many sorrows
And many right deeds lead to many joys.
The world is what it is, always,
But subtly, we perceive it differently.
Language molds around reality
And many worlds converge
Many wills do battle
To have supremacy.
Yet, there is what's real...
One will can stifle another and ruin them
And it is often the lamb who is God's chosen;
The barren one with a barren womb;
The woman rejected by her suitor
Married to him, but widowed by rejection.
And she goes through life
As Zion, a heath in the wilderness
Encamped and bound to laws she doesn't understand.
And then, the LORD reigns supreme
And His will is sovereign over all else.
He aligns the stars, he keeps the constellations in orbit.
He reigns, and keeps the worlds in their proper spheres.
And we do battle with the demons
And wrestle them like Britos and Beowulf;
And when we take on our full armor,
The sword of the word,
The shield of faith,
The gauntlet of charity,
The shoes of readiness to share the gospel,
The belt of truth,
The aegis of righteousness,
The helmet of salvation;
We slaughter the foes and princes who wish to do us harm.
And we wrestle with them, and win.
And it is by God's will alone, we are empowered,
And through rest in His will, we are made appropriate.
There is no other way to win.
Then she gives birth to many right nations.

Time to Talk About the Internet

There are thousands of things we're forgetting because of it. Literally, core concepts in math, such as Geometry's relation to Algebra, or contextual based reading skills... we're losing it.

I don't understand how we've become so dull, but I think the answer lies in the fact that everything we do on the internet, revolves around social constructs, and a priori reasoning. This was common knowledge in the 90's and 00's, that we understood this fact that everything in language, related back to something we described in the real world. It was taught in our High Schools. Until it wasn't, and I think the education degraded under the Patriot Act and Common Core, and Universities were focused too much on squaring the circle, and making absurd conjectures about Postmodern nonsense, rather than sticking to the foundations of evidence and reason.

And you can still believe in Christ, through evidence and reason. There's no point in casting aside Christ for this, as there's a foundational bedrock of evidence in support of the Bible. Both witness, and archeological.

But, this comes to the fact, that the internet has given people infinite information, but infinite bad information, and has made the world dull, in that everything is related to language rather than the context or substance of that language. Rather, Math we used to understand has a Hermeneutics too, and it was the foundation of Western Society, and without it, we've lost ground, and it's entirely the Internet's fault.

0^0

 The same thing in math, you do in language. You don't go by the literal equation alone, but what it applies to in the real world. That's why context always matters. I learned that in High School, I don't know how we forgot it. It's the same thing for interpretation, you can have the exact same sentence mean a thousand things. You don't take things in isolation, but draw them through their contexts, what something actually means. It's the same in math, I'd suppose, if you needed 0^0 to be indeterminate, 1 or undefined, that's what you'd do in that specific instance, based on the geometry of what you were using. As it'd relate to that specific shape.

Scandalous Monster

He lie sleepily in his bed,
And a merciful man;
Though men wanted to kill him
His prayers were in all their tents.
He did not want anything,
Save to eat from his work
And be fed by a clean tongue.
His desire was for a warm body
Of a beautiful woman to sleep next to him
And for good food of a provincial kind.
Not for riches, glory, fame... no...
Only for a wife to work beside him.
He never received it,
For on the night of his death 
The world went to war.
And like a certain patient
He died in the bombing.

The world, though, thought he wrought it.
They thought he did it through his foreboding.
Rather, he saw the strings of providence long ago
And the circumstances compiling,
Where no other thing could come.
There was no fixing the world's problems
And he cried for peace,
But when Israel had to go to war
He knew there could be no peace.
So he stayed silent,
Voted for the tyrant he swore never to vote for
And died a merciful man, vilified,
Until the truth came out it was a plot
Against him all along.

Gabriel Ash

So far beyond me, thy seraphic intelligence wise;
So meticulous on every detail.
Great poet, great leader, great innovator.
I, a measly worm, work to eat my bread.
Take poet laureate from me, take the laurel;
Let me eat. For I do not seek to claim your crown
But only take my portion in the land of the living.
I wish to eat from my labors
And accomplish Solomon's wisdom.
For it will be my joy.