The blessing appears,
"God will give you all your heart's desires,"
March ought to be a good one.
Like the video if you believe.
I'm into April,
Tempted like I am with Chain Mail
To avoid the curse.

Oh, please, believe the report of blessing.
I believe in Christ Jesus.

My hopes are dashed this month,
As some dandy from Great Britain
Tells me, "Just believe you'll be prospered."
What about Job?
Is that not the very advice his friends gave him?
Even Elihu?
Whom God said darkened counsel with words without knowledge?

I know I will be prosperous, at some point.
I know I will have a wife,
Yet Job even said, "Had God answered me,
"I would not believe it."
As if the dejection of Job
Which was not a sin,
Was cursed by the video to be a sin.

I hope this reaches that person.
There is no power in incantations,
Prayers, blessings,---
Curses, blasphemes,
Enchantments.
Yet, there certainly is,
In the sense that a lie breaks the hope,
An evil eye breaks the spirit
And a kind word lifts the burden of the yoke.

To say, "This month you will see great prosperity!"
Is it not a false prophecy?
Did not Isaiah and Jeremiah have evil only to say?
Yet, Isaiah said, "And a virgin will be with Child,
"Believe." Believe that the virgin is with child
And that she gives birth.
Therefore, salvation is accomplished.
For the child, if we believe, is our salvation.

Work produces results.
I've put much work into the ether,
I will see results.
Yet, the danger is the dejection one feels
After being hopelessly told,
"All your dreams will come true,
"If you just believe in God!"
Was this true for Paul?
Who died by Nero's Guillotine? 
Who spent most of his geriatric life
In prison, in chains, with no one to comfort him?
What if some fool came to him and said,
"Oh, Paul, tomorrow, if you just believe,
"You will be taken out of prison, and made a free man!"
Moreover, was not Paul in prison because he persecuted the church?
Yet, God did not hold it to his account,
For Paul would not have been in prison
For persecuting the Church
Had he of not converted.
He'd be celebrated like Byron is today
For living a riotous and drunken, carousing
Incestuous, homosexual,
Violent, abusive, and neglectful, murderous life.
He'd be celebrated for that.
And he would have spent not even a day in prison
Had he not been a Christian.
For, why did he see Caesar?
Was it not for his Christianity?
And at his trial, he confessed to martyring Christians?

Yet, it was not for martyring Christians that Paul suffered in chains.
The whole world could care less the reason he was in chains.
Rather, they only cared that he was a Christian;
And for that reason, was the true reason Paul was in chains.
I could never suffer that, therefore, God will---in my greatest hope---
Absolve me of the crimes I committed.
As I'm not even like Job,
For I had lurked at my neighbor's doorstep in my very lustful youth.
Before I had a conversion, and before I chose to do what is right
Over what is wrong.
May God have mercy on me,
But do not tempt my heart with falsehoods
Saying, "Only just believe, and it will all get better."
It will get better, when God answers me
And rebukes Elihu for my sake.
Whether I believe or not, it makes no difference.
Save that I believe in the Son of God, Jesus Christ.

Aphorism 1: Evil is ancient, just like good.

There is nothing so handsome
As the look of confidence on an old Atheist's sneering face,

Just as there is nothing so serene
As the look of satisfaction on an old Christian's. 

Both men have uncovered many truths
Yet the first is bitter while the second breathes a second breath.

Modern music is tinged with sadness.
Every breath is big, epic... yet melancholy.

Yet the older music, at its saddest
Was still a celebratory feast.

The perfume of the wildflowers
Carries with the scent of the woods.
My lover's musk is like that of this breeze.
The April mowings brim in the warmer
Zephyrs of the sun's bath and periwinkle flood
Of sky; 

My lover, you are more pleasant than these.

The minute I am vulnerable
In a poem,
I just want to delete the son of a gun.
I feel a tight pull somewhere outside my chest.
It is my spirit breaking...

Don't make me have to do this
To earn my bread.
I am distant---
My prophecy erring
For the same reason Jonah's did.

I want to keep my reader away.
I don't want them attuned to my heart.
I don't want them knowing where I hurt.
I want to talk about lofty things.
I want to speculate on things far away.

I don't want to talk about feelings
If there is nothing good to feel.
I don't want to sing songs like this.

They're popular...
Everyone loves them.
Everyone loves to hear the heartache
Everyone wants to see the vulnerabilities.

Don't you understand I'd rather talk politics
And religion
And philosophy
And art
And science
And math
And sociology
And psychology
And history
And mythology
And nature

And not talk about my feelings?
I'd rather not talk about my feelings.
An autobiography of life
Is not something I want to write.

Everyone wants an autobiography.
My life's too painful to write it.
Save in fables.

I walk with you through the valley
Walk with me one step more.
I saved you once, my daddy,
Don't make living into a dark chore.

Believe in my songs and future
Believe in my fortune and gift.
Don't throw me away with the soothers
Don't hate me or cause a rift.

I want to see my future
I want the good things of this world.
I have always been a straight shooter
And you an ever shining pearl.

I don't want great fame
Or money or vice.
I don't want my name
To be flashing with lights.

But, God gave me a talent
That you said not to burry.
So, don't think I'm a rapscallion 
For not wanting to worry

About my work which I have made.
This work I am called to, see;
Come what will or what may.

Karma is just the social opinion
Others have of you.
It is unforgiving,
Unjust, biased
Without mercy toward completely innocent people---
It justifies a serial killer and makes him feel no shame.
It constantly breaks and destroys an innocent man.
Do untouchables do untouchable things?
Did Genghis Kahn suffer anything?
What about the other countless dictators
And Mass Murderers in Asia and Africa?
Did Stalin receive Karma?
Did Mao? People still love him to this day.
He starved, slaughtered and imprisoned almost five-hundred million people.
Yet, his Karma is so good,
For half the world sings his praise.

Karma is a cur.
Because it has no justice
And no mercy.
It's as much a backward fable as the Koran.