A Midrash of Mine

LORD of the Sabbath, King of Kings, I, yes I, I speak to Thee in the valley of suffering and doubt. It is not You, Oh LORD, Who I doubt, but myself; yet Thy manifold blessings toward me are endless, yet my heart does not perceive them. Why, LORD, doth the sinner prosper? Why does the unrighteous man bear many children? Why do the wicked go in companies, and destroy the fruits of the righteous, and say, “God does not see!” They force Your people to curse with their cruel sciences, and they teach wicked laws, and repentance is far from them. Their lips are nowhere near You, and their hearts are hidden in deep and wicked counsels against the LORD.

Who, LORD, shall hold them accountable? Is Your Law of no effect? Does the righteous man go to hell, and the sinner get saved? Does he who gives his substance to the poor, is he now cursed, and the stingy man blessed? Is the witch and warlock who curses and makes enchantments over Your elect, and Your divine inheritance, are they now right before Your eyes, and Your people cast off like a dead branch, for wanting to serve You, and honor Your Law? Is the righteous in perpetual doubt, because of You, that You bless the wicked, and give the saints ashes and humble them, and turn all their wisdom to ashes, and Adam himself says, “My wife is no longer worthy” for as Clement says, “Envy, all are envious of the positions of divine authority.” So he says to me, “Be small, and little among the church.” LORD, I am small, and I am stricken and seen as lame by all around me, and a man not to be trusted. Yet, what I speak is for You, and You have given me into the hands of mine enemies, and have given them freedom to destroy me to the very core of my being. For what cause? Because I tried to honor You with every substance I had, and my full time, and the witch had enchanted me in the diner saying, “Do not accomplish thy work, do not seek God, but lay your burden to the plough, and maim yourself, so you can become Antichrist like us.” LORD, they sought my life, and sought to lay the burden to my soul, but I was steadfast, and am patiently awaiting my answer. Hephzibah shall be given to Your servants, and Beulah to Your chosen, and one requisite there is for salvation, and only one, and that is to call upon the name of Jesus, whom Barnabas confirms. Ignatius says, “Yes, where is it written?” For the volume of the Book is a witness of You, and I shall honor You with my whole heart, and my whole soul, and my whole strength, and do the things which are pleasing in Your sight, by seeking You day and night, and saying to the world, “Thou art a fecal draped garment in woman’s blood, and the seed of an ass.” Therefore, I shall not seek it at all, but shall live at peace in my heart with all men. Mine enemy and my friend, and speak blessing over the congregation forever, for I shall say to the witch, “You cursed me, but I do not curse you.” I shall say to the sick, “Thou art sick, but I fear not thine disease, for the LORD is with me.” I shall say to the poor, “Heap up warmth, and I will give you what little substance I have.” I shall say to the false seer who warned me of naught but her own foolish burden, “Why do you curse me and my work, and make me an offender? When I seek God plainly? Need not an ox eat while it is threshing the field? Should I ask you to confirm the message twice, which you would not do? And therefore, have lost much time and energy not knowing what way to prosper? Even you, I do not hold you accountable, for we are all taught to lie, and all men are liars. Even I, even I. I am not burdened.” I shall say to the King, “Stand your arms down, stand your arms down, but fight the good fight, fight the good fight… we need not to enflame kings any longer, but rather need mercy on the battlefront, and to yield fruit for our allies.”

7 Stages of Literature

Stage 1. I like it when the teacher reads to us in class.
Stage 2. These books give me a distraction from doing work, and is like watching a movie. It's fun.
Stage 3. Oh, they can be serious, and talk about adult things, and make you feel?
Stage 4. Wow, there's a lot of ideas.
Stage 5. Well, actually, there's not that many ideas, they just recur over and over again through different cultures and times.
Stage 6. The books seem to be changing with me.
Stage 7. Wow, real people are far more interesting than these things. They're like books, too.

Response to Questions on Orwell’s Review of That Hideous Strength

1. The book was not one of C. S. Lewis' better books, so I actually agree with Orwell. If you're going to be explicitly Christian, be Christian. But, he sort of got into the Space Occult. Like, it was too ambiguous... I think that's what Orwell was trying to say, is he didn't come off as Christian--which is ]h]is prevailing ethos--and it disappointed it, when it ended without a discussion, as I was expecting Merlin and the Head to dialogue, rather than just end in a Deux Ex Machina.

2. I think working from the framework, if your story incorporates miracles, you have to be cognizant of the ethos you're working through. Which, Orwell probably wanted a Christian moral, and when he didn't get it, the book was confused, and it began to be kind of schizophrenic. I'd say that was my problem with the book, was it didn't work from a Christian framework, but rather was a sort of unbelievable space occult thing, which Narnia is leaps and bounds better, and so are Lewis' essay works. The Space Trilogy was always low on the totem pole for me, on Lewis' corpus, and I never really did like it. But, miracles don't depreciate the stories value, but I think the invention of a Mythology and mixing the Occult with Science, that's kind of disturbing--and may be the actual strength of the novel, I haven't figured that out. But, I found it kind of eerie, and I didn't get the respite of a Christian message. Which I think might be Orwell's problem with it, all around, is it didn't stick to Lewis' ethos, but rather diverted off of it, into occult magic and stuff like that.

3. I'd say the answer is not different. It's just you got to choose your ethos. And Lewis' ethos is Christianity. And this was a particularly early work, but he was also writing Mere Christianity at this time, he should have known better. I felt kind of alienated from it, as I couldn't implant Christianity into it, but rather it devolved into its own mythology. Which is something people do today--so it's probably more readily accepted today, with the culture's general malaise toward Christianity, you have mythologies like DBZ and Japanese Anime making Gods and stuff, where DBZ kind of lost my interest when it transitioned from an Atheistic world to a Theistic world, and I think the problem here is the same. Putting Gods and Goddesses in your work kind of warps it. Which, you can say Aslan is sort of like that, but he's more of a symbol rather than a literal. Where I think the problem with The Space Trilogy was it was literal... and that's not God's name, so it sort of offended Orwell, who's, although unwillingly, in that Christian society that wants real Christianity, or none at all. Like is said to Laodicea.

https://apilgriminnarnia.com/2020/09/10/george-orwells-review-of-c-s-lewis-that-hideous-strength-throwback-thursday/

The Schizophrenic Poet

The schizophrenic has a sound
Mind for creating poetry.
For it soothes his soul to place the
Song upon the sheet, and see it
There, where it can't hurt anyone.
And there, several years later it
Emerges, and is seen to be
False, only creative forays.
For the mind tortured by worlds
Needs to speak its peace; who knows if
It is true? It likely is to
Some degree. It is the mind's thoughts
And then creatively expressed
And then exorcised, and read
By others, through his adventure.

Why Jesus Spoke Figuratively

So, the age old question is upon us, "Why would Jesus say He would be three days in the belly of the Earth, three days and three nights, like Jonah?" And Jesus seems to have been crucified on Friday Morning, put in the tomb Friday evening, in the grave Friday night, Saturday morning and night, and raised on the third day, Early Sunday morning.

Atheists will say, "Aha! Jesus is a liar!"

But no... much the same way Bible discrepancies are also called into question, when they shouldn't be, and here's the reason.

It is not healthy for the human being, to think about things so literally. As some researchers point out, the Left Brain, which focuses on such small trivial details, is the predatory brain, while the right brain comprehends the larger picture, and is not focused on such things.

This gets to the fact that the Bible is very much meant to be interpreted as a story. It's a true story--like Alexander, or Caesar, or Cyrus or Darius--but it is more fluently understood as a story, in that plot framework. Which, inconsistencies are not as important as the words themselves, and their meaning.

Too many people interpret things to the literal letter, and such is bad for the brain. It draws out all the wrong instincts in people, and makes them too focused on trivial matters, and doesn't get to the wider berth, nor does it comprehend the wider breadth of what's being said.

With this being told, when King Saul dies two ways, or Judas, we can part hairs trying to reconcile it--and it can be reconciled--but need it be? The fact is it's told in a story narrative, to make it interesting, and what's more important--like the stories of Alexander, or Caesar, or Cyrus or Darius--is what the stories mean. The events, surely, happened, and likely Cleopatra would have presented herself to Caesar in a fascinating way--we know it's not two ways--but it's still recorded that she impressed him by smuggling herself to him, and making him fall into fatal attraction with the mere appearance of herself from the carpet or laundry bag or what have you.

So it is with the scripture, people are meant to look for the wider truths, and not the narrow truths, as it's more respectable for the brain, and it helps it comprehend the important structures, rather than the unimportant, which those unimportant things draw to the brain the schizophrenic and predatory instincts.

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[U]pon further looking at the thing, it seems Passover may have been on Wednesday and Christ may have been crucified that very day, as the Resurrection happened in 31AD, and Passover was on a Wednesday that year, and Christ was in the grave from 15th of Nisan to 18th of Nisan. There's nowhere in the Bible where it says "Friday" was the day he was crucified. And Guang Wu says there was an eclipse of both the sun and moon on 31AD, and Phlegon of Trelles does too. And they wanted Him off the cross for the High Sabbath. And there's literally only a six day discrepancy with the eclipse recorded in China, which is easily accounted for.

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However, there are some things which are too deep. Trust me... if you ever encounter that, just have faith in God that He's omnipotent, and can work everything for the good. And trust the Bible, no matter what. Just trust it... even if you see something you can't understand one day... trust it. It's like the News Report of God's dealing with His people.

I mean, maybe that's also understood in the Church Liturgy, on Ash Wednesday? I think I remember that, actually.

https://brandon.water.blog/2024/05/29/the-annals-of-guang-wu-31ad-the-eclipse-happened-and-a-month-later-guang-wu-issued-the-decree/

Another Reason P Cannot Always Equal NP

I had just understood, that the area of a circle formula is like Length times Width. But, hold on... a Radius is not the same thing as length. So, you do the same math expression for a rectangle, it will not work, but you do it for a square, it will. Because half the parameter of a square times its radius would equal the area. So this math works for a square, because it is equal, the same that it works for a circle, because it is equal. However, said area formula will not work for a rectangle. Because a rectangle's side lengths are not equal.

It is because of this, and is also the same that Quintic Roots cannot always be solved, that the P versus NP cannot always have a solution, and only some Quintic Roots can be solved. Because solving it would generalize a universal formula for all shapes, which is impossible.

However, many are not unsolvable. One can take known principles of geometry, and combine them like a Geometric Proof, and solve many NP difficult equations, if one graphs the shape and breaks it down into its composite parts. Like in a Geometric Proof.

The Loneliest Whale

52 hertz, and UFOs, an American Pie,
Luigi Mangione and Richie Valens,
Aliens and Bigfoot, Area 51,
Planes crash, Kobe dies...
QAnon and Pizza Gate
Alex Jones gets sued
Why oh why oh why?
It's all the great distractions:
That's why.
It's probably just a whale.
It's probably the United States Air Force.
It's probably a disgruntled man.
It's probably just Ghost Stories.
It's probably just a nuclear waste dump.
It's probably just kids not being able to do their jobs right.
It's probably meant to discredit Conspiracy Theorists.
It's probably because Alex wouldn't get an Attorney.