My Rough Road

That Paul explicitly warns about not needing to observe the Jewish Old Testament Law, I wish I would have learned that in Sunday School instead of how to save the world.

Like, I get it. The world is bad—it really wasn’t that bad, but the church I was at wanted me to solve Global Warming, and poverty and all that nonsense. I mean, it was good… I used it as a muse to develop Psuedo-technologies for Sci-Fis, but generally, I should have been learning solid theology and foundational Christianity.

At about the time I was fourteen, that’s when you really need to encounter Paul. Christ is for a young child, you learn Him, and build the foundation, but Paul’s for a teenager, because by about that time you’ve made some big mistakes, and need to learn the lesson of Christianity, which is we all fail, and need redeemed. At about 30 you need to learn Moses, and the time for War, and the harsh realities of life, that it’s not candy, and sometimes morality is ugly. Which, you know, we know when we watch TV the bad guy gets it, but we need to know what war is by 30 because that’s when we have the most mature reason to understand it.

But, I’d say around 14 I needed to be taught Paul and Song of Songs, and some of the other epistles. As I was not fully aware of what Christianity was by the time I got sucked into a well meaning, but destructive Messianic Jewish cult. I mean, the man who taught me, taught me a lot about Judaism, and I respect the ideas of the Covenant, and the Sacrifice and all that other stuff… it let me understand the Old Testament, from having lived it. But, to be forced into it, or to think I needed to do those things to be saved, really that’s why I needed a better teacher in my youth, who could teach me Sunday School.

Instead, he taught me the Bible was a bunch of stories, and even theologians say so, which made me disdain theology with a passion, if it could teach you that about the Bible. As I had bad influences all around me, and I needed the tools to combat it. As, I dealt with true spiritual forces, and I needed to know the good. And I needed to know Paul at 14 and 15 and 16 instead of about Feminism, Global Warming and how to solve Poverty. Which, you know… it got me thinking about those things, but I’m in no position to fix any of that. I would have been better off with a sound theological framework so I wouldn’t get sucked into a cult. Because I really wanted the morals, to fight back the evil that was surrounding me, and wanted to make me a prey.

So, he taught me some good things… in Sunday school my teacher taught me to help the poor. That’s foundational to who I am, and I’m thankful for that, just like the Cult Leader taught me about Judaism… so it worked for the good. I have a very deep theological depth, so quite inadvertently these traps sprung on the devil, and made me far more aware of the true religion, and capable of understanding it.

So, I’d never say either of them were bad people… they’re not… they’re just mistaken on opposite ends. One’s a secular Christian, the other a Messianic Jew, and they taught me dual things about the faith… but the meat and potatoes wouldn’t be taught to me until I was in jail, when the Chaplain told me to read Galatians, and I heard Jay Vernon McGee sermons on the radio, and found he had identical readings of the book of Jeremiah. Which, backtrack, was prepped in me by a Baptist church I was going to, but that’s a whole other story. I think he tried to tell me, but the damage was already done, and he might have called the authorities on me, because I used the wrong name… he was kind of a weird dude, too.

So, anyone who cries about abuses in the church, I don’t think I ever had a religious leader who taught me anything close to resembling the truth, except Christ Himself, and I’ve always somehow figured it out, and I guess that’s the Holy Spirit in me teaching me as I go… and I’m really understanding the concept of the Law’s Abolishment, that all things that condemn you, are abolished in the cross, so it leaves you with hope to become a better person.

On the good side, however, I had great Sunday School and Vacation Bible School until the Lutheran Church became secular. I had a good catechism teacher. And at the Baptist church I was going to, I learned fundamental theology from the Pastor, and had a good Sunday School, who I think were the authorities in question, called in to deprogram me from whatever cult I belonged to... which I'm a little miffed at actually because I think they hindered me in many things, and no such apparatus ought to exist in a free country. But, that's generally the fact. I appreciate what they taught me in the realm of apologetics, though. But, generally, the spying and all that other crap needs to stop, as the person who was in that cult and taught me is harmless. He just believed something eccentric.

Snow White Controversy

[It[ kind of reminds me of when I wrote my Philosophy Paper in 101. I went to the professor five or six times, asking him about my thoughts on Existentialism--which was a decent enough essay, and we had a good rapport--and then I scrapped it for the easy question [because he didn't like it]. Which [the easier] was one of those dumb prompts they give you for a College Admission. And... the original would have been a lot better. But, I feared my philosophy professor's opinion so much, I turned in the essay I wrote in half an hour, rather than the essay I was writing for 2 weeks. You understand? Because if you have an unappeasable audience, you're going to turn out crap. So, if you're going to turn out something audiences are already prejudiced toward, it's best to just do the best job you can and be as authentic as possible. As I may have actually gotten an A in that class and not a B if I had just turned in the essay I was working on for the term.

Natural Religion vs Christianity

{}Natural Religion, {} is found all throughout the world, from Druids to Egyptians to Babylonians. Confucianism is probably the best example of natural religion, or some combination of it with Mozi and Lao Tsu. And from that we get Natural Law. But, that law is self evident, and can be understood by rational minds. Christianity is interesting, because it first assumes that rationale for it to exist. As we sin knowing sin is sin, and so therefore need redeemed from it by Christ's death and resurrection.

Pilate and Lentulus

Coming upon these two Syriac manuscripts
One by Publius Lentulus and another by Pilate
I've found 5th century Syriac sources
Written in the Syriac tongue---
When translations were fruitful
It would be around the 5th Century AD.
460 years after Christ.
Catholics say, "It is pseudepigraphal
"For no Lentulus ever was Publius."
Although, scholars said Nazareth never existed;
They've even gone so far as to say Israel
Didn't exist until the seventh century B.C..
Which we know is not true.
Why would translation work be done
And then hidden until the Renascence?
Mystery upon mystery.

The Enlightenment

[What people are calling "The Enlightenment"] is the exact opposite of the [E]nlightenment. Maybe we need a new [Enlightenment]? Don't you think?

[T]he introduction of Buddhism to the West is what caused it, like [one says] Nietzsche and Kant. The actual [E]nlightenment was what came before it. That's the beginning of Modernism what [they're] describing. 

Generally, The Enlightenment was established in the Philosophy of the Declaration of Independence, and based itself in reason and sound first principles. Fortunately, we still have its tradition preserved in the Constitution and Declaration, but in the phrase "We hold these truths to be self evident" [t]here's no admission of subjectivity, as "Self Evident" is not "Subjective" but rather based in first principles of something being of itself evident, which is how Geometry works. You read in Thomas Jefferson's letters, or Locke the cusp of the Enlightenment, which was philosophy based in sound and evident first principles, that were apparent to the learned, but maybe not the unlearned.

Descartes was famous for saying, "I think therefore I am" but the whole point of that, was to establish a true set of knowledge. Like Descartes was a Mathematician, and framed the Quadratic Equation in its modern incarnation. He was not afraid to claim there's objective knowledge. 

I'd actually say Nietzsche and Kant were the beginning of Modernism, as Modernism is the exact opposite of the Enlightenment, which it opposes that there's any true knowledge beyond the material. And Postmodernism objects to there being knowledge at all. 

The Enlightenment was man first discovering there was knowledge, and then giving that fire to the people, like Prometheus. I mean, the entire Enlightenment was of course created by the Masons, who founded that there was knowledge. That's why The French Revolution deified Reason. 

I don't know... something smells fishy about this.

My Brain

My brain is like a top of the line
Graphics Chip, only second from the best;
A fragmented, but top of the line Hard Drive 
With perfect recall; top of the line qRAM cards
And a Quantum Single Core Processor;
With a top of the line sound card,
Second from the best..

My graphics chip, is because I have Phantasia, and not Hyper-Phantasia.

My Hard Drive because I have great recall of events that have happened,
Even as far back as the age of one and a half.

My qRAM because my mind wanders all day, every day, and randomly bring back memories
So Qubits are the only thing that can run a Quantum Processor.

A Quantum Single Core, because my mind is singularly focused
And can only run one program at a time,
But I see through dichotomies, and see things through multiple layers and dimensions
While comprehending things without having direct evidence--I make pretty accurate leaps like in Calculus
By predicting the patterns.

My sound card, because I have near perfect pitch---
Not perfect pitch, but near perfect pitch, as my Memory cannot keep track
Of all the different pitches to have perfect pitch;
But I can recognize pitch when I hear it, and have something to base it off of.

Where Have the Fire Flies Gone?

I see lots of fireflies, they just have a short gestation period. About two or three weeks, that's all they're out for. Usually between June and July. Most insects are only spawning for a short period. Dragon Flies are no different. First comes the Horse Flies and House flies around Mayday and they peak around Memorial Day, and then the Dragon Flies come out and gobble up lots of them from July into August, that lasts about two months. The Mayflies are also usually only out around August and September--ironically because they're called "mayfly" but aren't out very long. Ticks also come out for a short period, about two months. I've observed that for close to seven years now. The Fire Flies aren't out for very long, and most people just aren't outdoors during the summer anymore, so they miss them. Now House Flies have a long gestation period, and so do Mosquitoes. But horseflies are usually dormant in Late August or Early September.