I try everything, but fail.

In my dreams, the one I desire,

Her large family belongs to another man.

 

Everything is broken in life.

Everything is destroyed.

I see the enemy closing in around me

On every turn.

 

None take me seriously;

My words are chaff.

My life is spent in vanity here on the earth.

Am I truly edifying?

Am I truly bringing Christ to the masses?

Or, am I just a laughingstock?

 

It’s like my precious words are chaff.

It’s like my life was built on shifting sand.

I give, I give everything

But now there is nothing left to give.

There isn’t even the hope of love

Nor the hope of family.

Just the desperate hope of living until I’m old

Living, without family, without lover,

Without my goals accomplished.

All look and say, “Where is God?

“Look, this is a Christian.”

 

Slowly, my religion dies

Despite my protests for it not to.

I don’t want the world where my religion fades

As there would be no love.

Only oxytocin.

There would be no joy.

Only dopamine.

There would be no peace.

Only a chemical reaction obfuscated with love.

 

Men would use one another for their lusts…

Their appetite.

Would men murder? Maybe.

Maybe they wouldn’t.

Maybe it would just be a violent hedonism

Where relationships are cheap rags

That get used to wipe the spritz

From your privates

After touching another’s flesh.

 

I would lay on my couch,

Because none would want to read what I’ve written;

Silently, I would pine away,

My life’s work forgotten.

My name forgotten.

And never having seen joy on the earth

I would die.

Would the world turn black at my death?

I don’t know if I can retain the faith for that long.

 

So, I ask God to not leave me to this fate.

For, I am faltering.

Not in faith. I will always believe He exists.

Just in my walk with Him.

With no pleasure, with constant suffering,

I would not see the things that I treasure.

And I might lose Him from my life.

I would believe in Him until the day I die.

But, who knows if I would pine away

And pine away on the hallucinogenic porn.

Would I trade my heritage for this?

 

I would probably live until 108

And die, never having loved a woman

Never having married,

Never having a woman in my bed,

Never raising a child,

Never doing anything…

Not because I had done anything wrong.

Just because the world had said, “No,”

To all the things that would make me truly happy.

It wanted me to find my own happiness…

I had found it. It was the happiness of God.

But, that wasn’t what it wanted for me.

It wanted me degenerate all my life.

 

Understand, everything I want

Is taken from me.

Because of a world that said it wasn’t good enough.

For me, it would have been.

But, when I get to heaven,

I will say to God, “You created a good world.

“But men spoiled it. Yes. It wasn’t you Who made me suffer.

“It was them. And, suffering always was them.

“To suffer was their joy.”

Everything popularly held to be true

Is a lie.

 

Are the Founding Fathers Christian?

Yes.

Except three, Thomas Jefferson, Benjamin Franklin and Thomas Paine.

 

Was Hitler an Atheist?

Yes.

You don’t believe white men become God

By being a Christian.

 

Is Atheism responsible for just about every catastrophe in the last hundred years?

Yes.

Surprisingly, also WWI, which was a War fought because the time period lacked values.

 

Is racism institutionalized in the United States?

No.

It’s the welfare programs that keep people trapped in a cycle of poverty.

 

Is religion the sum force of evil in the world?

No.

In fact, it’s done comparatively little damage

When compared to State Sanctioned atheism.

 

Was the United States supposed to be a Christian nation?

Yes and no.

There were laws saying both were true,

Which until about the 1960’s it became unequivocally no;

That was also the time we began to experience social decline.

 

That’s the secret history of the world

Which ten years of devoted study has unearthed,

And which radical leftist groups don’t want you to know…

Because they’ll find alternative facts which have no basis in reality.

According to the internet,

This quote is misattributed

To Gandhi:

 

“At first they ignore you,

Then they laugh at you,

Then they fight you,

Then you win.”

 

Does anyone not see history being changed before our very eyes?

The quote was not misattributed.

Rather, evil people want to missattribute our values

And change them to suit their own wants.

Aegis.

Crux.

Malum In Se.

Malum Prohibitum.

De Facto.

De Jure.

Cataract.

Mien.

Love.

Amatory.

Specious.

Casuistry.

Word.

Christophany.

Metaphor.

Mirepoix.

Compassionate.

 

Some might find that my opinion toward Gays is strong.

It is because I care about them.

Having experimented myself at a young age,

I realize it is just giving up.

Forming relationships with people of the opposite gender is hard.

We’re like apples and oranges, we men and women.

Despite social justice warriors wanting to say we’re the same.

 

I don’t believe people are born gay.

I believe people cannot find satisfying relationships

With others of the opposite gender,

So therefore, go to the easiest source for sex.

It is a lot easier to have sex with someone who is the same as you.

It is easier, and not just easier,

It is a less scarce resource.

But, there is an inherent knowledge it is wrong.

Somewhere in my conscience,

I had known it was wrong.

And, I was correct.

The revelation that the world’s problem

Is the acceptance of Homosexuality,

Which is less of a state of our being,

Than it is a resource more commonly available.

 

I wish people would stop lying to themselves.

It is against our wants, and wishes.

It is, in effect, giving up on love

And it is selfish.

My strongest argument for God

Is that there is good.

When evil is brought into the equation

I don’t shudder.

I know it was invented to kill and afflict the wicked.

When evil happens to the innocent

I know that men, having tasted the fruit,

Can have knowledge of evil,

And therefore, commit their own evil acts.

 

Rather, the question isn’t whether God exists…

The question is why doesn’t everyone believe on Him?

The reason for this is simple.

Men are built for certain pleasures,

But cruelty itself is a kind of pleasure,

And man tastes it, and doesn’t want to let it go.

If there are morals, there is a God.

There are morals.

Therefore, there is a God.

C. S. Lewis couldn’t write a good poem.

Jane Austen had poor grammar.

Tolstoy wouldn’t write poems.

Southey could not write a good short poem.

Hemingway could not write a good short story.

Ray Bradbury couldn’t write a full length novel.

Edgar Allen Poe couldn’t write a happy thought.

J. R. R. Tolkien couldn’t write about anything beside Middle Earth.

J. K. Rowling could only ever write Harry Potter.

Keats never finished a significant piece.

Frank Herbert could only write Dune.

Isaac Asimov wrote limericks in bad taste.

Harper Lee only ever wrote one significant piece.

And I cannot write in modern prose.

A million philosophical debates…

None bring us closer to the truth.

YouTube says, “Debate with postmodernists effectively,”

Like the Postmodernists were a group of organized defectors.

Rather, I would not debate a postmodernist, because you cannot.

Any truth would be pushed aside by their all consuming desire

To not understand a sentence.

For, that is what postmodernism is, is rejecting the meaning of what someone said,

And then circumventing it with sophistic remarks dismissing the truth claim.

Same with an atheist, who uses Science.

It must be logically positive.

Never to see the religion they are criticizing,

Having done the simple rudimentary thing

That Grass came before sunlight…

This makes them lose faith.

How? I don’t know…

I believe in an all powerful God.

Can God lie?

Is it a lie to paint the grass in the painting before the sun?

Or is it at all pertinent that an author never edit their work?;

Any writer can understand that.

What kind of picture does it present,

To be morally outraged at God because of science?

Furthermore, why are Christians obsessed with this “Worldview” nonsense?

Everything is “Worldview” and “Worldview.”

They’ve neatly categorized everyone within a “Worldview”.

My worldview is that God exists, and He is Jesus.

Must I stop believing in evolution?

If I must, I will.

For, it seems that all evolution is is mortal combat

A giant race to the bottom,

And blood and monkeys.

I do not ascribe to it because it is far to depressing.

But, atheists squandor that fact,

By going around in circles providing evidence for morality

When their evidence is that there is no morality.

Then they call modus ponen a circular argument…

When in fact, their definition for morality is weak

And is indeed circular.

For, the definition of morality is what morals are,

That is someone’s beliefs.

Some people’s morals are to cook an infant in turtle soup.

I don’t know if you know this,

But I don’t find that all too moral.

And then blatantly, we know morals exist

And are not subjective…

But, they twofold prove their ignorance by saying,

“Morals are Subjective, therefore they exist.”

Quite the contrary, morals are not subjective.

Observing a roach frozen with liquid nitrogen

Is not, what we could call, natural.

But it is possible.

Same thing with a man’s morals,

Which are far more paramount,

Because the moral state of human beings leads to disastrous consequences.

Our current moral state being the evidence I have.

O’ writer, are you a poet or a dreamer?

Do you anger Christ and His mother Maria?

Are you one wishing to change the eon’s laws?

Are you the one who wishes to build in the cold ironforge?

Or, are you one who wishes to see the laws

All around you; nay, not to break them and bend them to thy false wills

But see them in their truth, and to praise them

And to make them understood, in their invisible strings?

 

Do you, Poet, follow the course of law

To draw forth Maria’s nard?

Or do you, Dreamer, follow the course of what ought

To draw forth imagination’s gall?

 

The poet brings forth from the strings of faith

To find them upon his harp.

The dreamer, he tries to climb upon the air.