I Would Fall in Love With You So Easily

I would fall in love with you so easily.
If the two of us were to meet one another on the street
If we were to both be single---and there is the problem
Because beautiful girls like you aren't single for long---
Our reverence toward God
Our broken history.

Yet, I am ugly. Just foul words
As you express your best upon the sheet
I express my worst.

I give you my poetry, and you read it.
You like the ones I hate.
The ones I hate most about myself.
Your mind is like mine
And as a woman, that is rare to find
One who is wise.

Even the things I would disagree with
I find are noble in your hands.
Such things as feminism make me angry
But when you speak of it
I remember it had its elegance.
And I understand you are a warrior
But so am I.

I stay away from you on purpose.
I do not come near your portal
For if I did, I would find one with like mind.
I do not know if it is the same with you.

Yet, I am ugly.
I am putrid.
However, embark on a journey with me
And I might fall in love.
Right now I am not.
Right now I am jaded.
I am selfish.
I am cruel.
I am angry.
Embittered by the world around me.

I do not want you for sex.
I want you for your company.
For, even the foulest thoughts in other women
Are noble in you.

For, you have a battle to fight
And I grant you excelsior on those battles.
As my nation crumbles
As my freedoms wane...
I am a glowing ember sodden by the lacquer 
Of too much kerosene.
Which, that kerosene smothers even my ember.
Yet, do not quench it---
The God I worship would never.

Yet, your friendship and amatoral touch
Is my deepest prayer.