The Deconstruction of my Faith

When I was young,
About eighteen,
I was talking with God and told Him
"I don't believe in You."
I heard His voice, saying, 
"All men have gone astray, and there is none which does good."

My Ex Girlfriend and I were atheists.
We were bound to hedonism
And neither of us were happy.
I was atheist for a few months.

Then, doubts crept in.
Almost immediately after becoming an atheist
Doubts about my atheism crept in.
What of Universal Good?
What of Universal Truth?
It was at that moment
I realized every atheist I'd ever spoken to
Hadn't believed in Universal Truth.
To them, truth was subjective,
And was only a matter of perspective.

It took serious blows to my faith.
Such a serious blow to my faith
That I began to write "The Fifth Angel's Trumpet"
And crafted Marc's Atheism with my own doubts
My own atheism.
Yet, at the end, Marc was to discover that the love
He shared with Erin was the proof of God's existence.

For, the greatest doubt in my mind
Was, "Why isn't this love universally true?
"Why do people scorn it, and malign it, and choose not to believe in it?
"This love is real. I know it. And this love can fix the world."
For that love, I have etched into my conscience as
The proof of God's existence.
It wrecked my faith in Accidents.
Nothing Accidental could be truly meaningful
Yet I had found meaning which transcended even myself.

What followed was I met my best friend Solomon.
And he introduced me to the hardest Atheism I'd ever seen.
Nietzsche. He introduced me to Robert Greene's ideas.
Then I had encountered the hardest atheism I'd ever seen.
But, my faith in atheism was already deconstructed.
Nietzsche's argument was disproven. 
For there is something genuinely good about love
And monogamy, and trust, and fidelity, and 
Most of all, I had discovered truth.

In my earliest burgeons of intellectual curiosity
I took a quarter, which was 1 inch in diameter.
I tried to discover what Pi was.
I had found Pi was a measurement
Of a circle's circumference if the diameter is one.
Meaning, truths were measured
And universal truths existed.
This peace I felt, this love
I measured in the real world
As a solve to all of our worldly problems.
And its source, I soon found, was Christ Himself.
It was not something we could generate on our own
And even saying Christ's name,
I feel the genuine peace.

For this peace, I found it hadn't come from human agency
But was rather something which Christ Himself had taught.
It was the very teachings of Christ---this peace I had found.
And with that, I realized immediately that this universal truth
Which I felt, and made me a better man,
Was the truth which I must teach the world---
And that truth's power source is Christ Jesus.