The word there is "Will" not "Desire". You're using a bad translation. Which, if you desire the LORD, and desire to fear His name, you'll be saved. Which, that desire is for righteousness, which God foreknew those Who'd desire His law, and predestined them with Grace.
O Lord, I beseech thee, let now thine ear be attentive to the prayer of thy servant, and to the prayer of thy servants, who desire to fear thy name: and prosper, I pray thee, thy servant this day, and grant him mercy in the sight of this man. For I was the king's cupbearer.
Generally, most deconversions come from despising the Law. Which God foreknew who'd cherish it and who wouldn't. But, Jesus says, "Those who hunger and thirst for righteousness will be satisfied." If you hunger and thirst, that's not according to your will, is it? It's a bodily function, saying you hunger and thirst. Those who have hunger for righteousness and desire to be fed, will be. Those who have no hunger or thirst for righteousness will not be. They'll starve. Whom God foreknew these objects, and bore with them patiently.
"Have I any pleasure at all that the wicked should die? saith the Lord God: and not that he should return from his ways, and live?"
Paul there is speaking of the desire for righteousness, which comes not from man's will or effort. Which you lost, that's why you deconverted. You hadn't the hunger or thirst. And I'm sorry for that, I truly am, but so many will perish for that reason. For a lack of desire for the LORD's commandments or true righteousness.
16 So then it is not of him that willeth, nor of him that runneth, but of God that sheweth mercy.
G2309 means that you can't be saved by an active will, but rather a passive will only. That is Grace, is to rest on God's law. To have passive hunger for righteousness, rather than feigned hunger, where you force yourself to have it, like a Pharisee. It has to be real, and genuine from the heart, not like a hypocrite who only acts.
G2309 and G5143
I love that verse. God's going to repay those who broke Israel. Part of a healthy psychology is integrating the Shadow. The Bible does that, with verses like these. You have to understand the context to that verse. Like HAMAS is putting babies in ovens right now? Like, don't they deserve to be punished? God's not a wimp. And He fights dirty if you're a person who fears Him, He'll fight on your behalf. Like I said, the innate desire in a man to Fear and Honor God, and have righteousness, that is what saves him, and God foreknows who that will be, so He seals them with Grace. And we forfeit Judgment to God. It's not saying we should dash the babies on the rocks, only that the heathen nation who comes upon Babylon and does so, will be happy. In this case Medo Persia.
Why not think that way? There is evil in the world. And it needs to be dealt with some way or another. The fact is, war is sometimes necessary, and people do have to kill children. It's a hard message, but it's the truth. Otherwise, if you let it fester, it would metastasize and make everyone suffer.
Author: B. K. Neifert
Mark 13:51Jesus saith unto them, Have ye understood all these things? They say unto him, Yea, Lord. 52Then said he unto them, Therefore every scribe which is instructed unto the kingdom of heaven is like unto a man that is an householder, which bringeth forth out of his treasure things new and old.
My Three Masks
First mask, I scorn the world.
Second mask, I listen deep to friends and family.
Third mask, I seek out truth.
The Phoenix of Clement
I know not why you mixed such foolishness with your epistle,
As to talk about a fabled beast that does not exist and never has...
Let none of my poetry be considered prophecy, but like your metaphor
Be understood. Nothing I write is scripture, but it is sanctified nonetheless.
Just understand the meaning, and it will suffice. Nothing more.
Çatalhöyük
Behemoth's feet; tail of cedar;
Fire breathing leviathan.
You must build doors upon the roof.
Your Venus is found across the
Ocean, in America, too.
Naqad III's red paints found in
Nevada and other caves, too.
Similar subject, and theme, too.
Your peoples live in caverns, wise
Among your years, and use the bones
Of beasts as your decorations.
White Rider
White Rider, come, and bring your peace
Upon the walshen shores of Greece...
King of Grecia, awesome King;
Named "Sin", that is your name oh King,
And upon your horse will you bring
Such peace, pleasant sex, computers
Shall make perfect obsequious
Loves, to the rules of your great day.
The men, with the Glasses, shall feel
They shall eat, taste, touch, smell, hear, see,
And shall have beauties 'pon beauties
In their pornography, for them
To touch. They shall have all things in
Their domain, adventures, and games
Wars with no suffering, but play
They will, with robotic maids made
To do their chores, so enslaved, no work
Is done, but they like a rat on
A spinning wheel will be pleased. Pleased!
Until the great suffering comes;
Which you, Greek Rider, had thus made.
Blue Moon
Blue moon, how you're so beautiful
In the daytime sky, where the sun shines
Blue moon, how you're so beautiful
So precious there divine.
Fortune
Yes, those in Zion eat the finest grains...
The finest flours, the finest meats
The finest wines and milk, and tea.
You in Europe...
Do you think your prosperity comes from you?
You who eat sumptuous feasts?
You in America, eating the fatlings
And the roasted portions
With some spice and salt---
You have delicacies in great number.
Do you think it comes from you?
Nay... all power to eat comes from Jehovah-Jireh.
Therefore, repent, lest you be fed gall for meat and vinegar for wine.
The God of Asia
Buddha and Dab Kab is the god of Asia---
Mammon is her Biblical name.
Fortune, the wheel which crushed Jeremiah
And Job, and John the Baptist and Christ,
It can be hard to explain to an Asian
That the prosperity to come is at Zion
And this life is merely a testing ground.
Whomever Mammon bestows her gifts
Whether they come from the LORD
Or from Beelzebub, it comes regardless
Of righteousness or effort. Rather, it is a wheel
Which with random chance spins,
Unless the LORD made rich and cries out to Mammon
"Make my servant rich, you harlot!"
For Babylon, you sit upon the Scarlet Beast
And your commerce affects the world.
It is not our business, as Christians.
No... not at all.
Ours is merely to win souls.
If we have or have not, we do what we will
And though fed with the finest wheat
The finest wine, the finest oils, the finest milk
It shall come at the cost of a peasant's punery.
For God bestows all fortune.
Not the Kings over Babylon.
Not Damascus or Pul and Lud.
Aryan
Abraham's affair with Hagar seethes in your veins,
As you wish to create a morally perfect world
And sterilize it of the Apiru People's mark
You hate Islam, and Judaism, and want Greek Christianity
Saying "Jacob was a sinner," But cannot know...
No... you cannot know... Jacob was used by God.
God hated the elder, but showed favor to the younger.
And you rage at Rebekkah who told her son
To wear the woolen gloves, and slaughter a lamb.
A lamb, Aryan, a lamb, like Christ, to cover our sins.
It is the thing, as Nebuchadnezzar said,
You cannot know, for you only half believe, Aryan.
You only half believe.
The Snow
To prove the way a prayer's answer
Is given, I, a word, will speak
Today, this full bodied thought.
The snow, meant to come and bluster,
Would make the wagon's wheels be cold
On route to work in morning's day.
Yet, the white blanketed land made
By a fresh snowfall, is found fay
When the snow falls on Winter's eve.
Thus, confounded, on which to want
I prayed anxiously for no snow.
Yet, the snow it came, and melted
Leaving its frost upon the knolls,
But all the paths safe to travel,
I realized how a prayer finds ans.
So, as I write my work, my poems,
I woke to see the snow so fond,
A prayer is answered thus, so pray;
Lay at thy Savior's feet alone,
And see to have your prayers one day.
And then the next day, I see the
Foot race down the bare, frozen path.
I see myself moved against it
While the runners busily haste.
How it is, they hasten to wrath
Busily upon their highway
Doing their vain activities
While I suck the marrow from the
Forest, enjoying snow once laid
For me, for that too is like prayer.
Though fat and bulbous and ugly,
I understand what they cannot.
They run for beauty, health and wealth.
I carefully another way
Will walk, paced at my Savior's side
Knowing one day all beauty shall be mine.