Grace

We prune the orange flowers
Knowing we are doing wrong.
We produce less fruit...
Sometimes the plant dies by our pruning.
Yet, the rain still comes;---
The Earth still gives its scent;---
The birds fly by;
The Lightning fertilizes it.

Deep in our gut we know...
But we do it anyway.
And the flower does not produce fruit.
We poison its roots.
An unforgivable sin.
But, it is forgiven nonetheless,
Though we say, "I hadn't killed the plant.
"It was done the only way I knew how."
And we have knowledge,
And carry on unknowingly;
We do not know we had killed it
That with a little expertise
We may have saved the plant from extinction.
But, there is the lesson:
We pridefully go about our business
But grace leaves a little fruit on the vine
Despite our uncultured ways.
I am an Autodidact, who’s written a number of books, published and for sale on Amazon.com. I am a poet. A philosopher. A bible scholar. A hobbyist mathematician. Know subjects ranging as far as Psychology, Sociology, History and the Humanities. I do literary theory, and wrote everything from novels, to epic poetry to short stories, and as you can see several thousand essays on Quora.

I don’t have any degree or qualification that makes me an expert, beside the often mocked, “School of Hard Knocks.” Which, is you, my readers, always giving me good responses and heavy dialogues so I can hone and nurture my subjects, and improve the quality of my craft. Thank you, by the way, I always love open debate and learning from you. To say I have my college major in it, is a little tongue and cheek, but some people have no sense of humor, I get it.

I have Schizoaffective Disorder, but may shorten it to Schizophrenia so people understand. Schizoaffective Disorder is Psychosis and elements of Bipolar—depressive type for me personally. It’s a hard fought battle to keep myself afloat. But, I’ve written poetry about fighting and beating my inner demons (Metaphorically Speaking), and that’s what Fairyland is, is my battle with my illness and also my battle with the corruptive influence of the opinions of others.

I believe in the true Gospel, of being a good person, and using Jesus as a shield to help fend off the weapons of Satan. And also His blood for forgiveness, as I’ve committed miserable sins in my life—we all have—but I’ve wrestled with the Principalities of the Air, and took the armements of faith, and have fought hard against them. I will not know who won, until the dust settles, and I hear the LORD say, hopefully, “Well done good and faithful servant.”

I believe strongly in the moral teachings of Christ, and believe in the Old Testament as judgment against sin. And I believe in mercy for sinners, but also justice needs to be paid. I just think God’s the bringer of Justice, and not man, and that there comes a point in a man’s life where punishment needs to be relinquished. And that’s the Gospel, is forgiveness for a hope of Salvation, so you can be a better person.

Finally, you’ll see me talk about the subjects I’m well versed in, and I am glad to admit I know nothing but Christ. So if you find something wrong, it’s just from memory and looking it up online, and looking at the articles.

God is good. That is why we ought to believe in Him. That’s core to why I’m a Christian, is the world’s not good, but God is. So I know Him. As the LORD said, “Let no man boast in wisdom, strength or riches, but let him boast in this, that He know the LORD.” So, I admit I know nothing of what I say, beside the LORD and the ethical truths He’s instilled, and through that I retain my judgment to answer these questions, that the LORD through Wisdom gives me understanding, and nothing more. And if all should fade away, and every answer be silly to the world, I gave my best to answer, as the LORD can turn the wisdom of the wise foolish, so if He establish me, then so be it. For I know naught but Him.

More Thoughts on on P = NP

You essentially would be looking for a magic solution to everything. Just based on geometry, you can't solve P = NP. It's taking a Nondeterministic Polynomial and making it into a Polynomial. That's what it's saying. You'd need to break geometry to do it. Even getting to finite solutions on your prime factoring, and always checking them, requires an entirely different species of math than other things it would be used for. It is generalizing a formula for all forms of geometry. That simply can't happen. It's why a Circle is different than a Square and a Square is different than a Rectangle. It's just based on different observations of shapes, which finding a way to see if a thing is solved in all cases cannot be generalized, because every formula is a different shape, essentially, rooted in that specific problem.

Another Midrash

LORD, You are creator of man, and beast. You are supreme above all other living things. You make the waves, and they do not transgress the bounds. They are turbulent, and rage, and destroy, for LORD, You are wrathful with the sons of men. They have transgressed Your holy covenant, and taught mankind to speak lies. Where shall the seed of the blessed reside? Is it not in your golden palaces and streets? Shall they drink the honeycomb and milk? Shall they eat the bread, the manna from heaven? Shall they drink the waters which are alive? Shall they eat the fruit of life? Yes, LORD, if they continue in well doing, and doing what is good. They shall have a spirit to call upon You. If not, they shall forget You and Your law, and cast it behind them. Their conscience shall be seared, and they will be lionesses searching for prey, and dogs eating the dung, and tearing the bodies in the war. They shall be the fowl above, the vultures and eagles, eating the strings of bloody carrion, which lay rotten from the dead waste. That shall be the inheritance of those who dishonor Your statutes and make not the Law their delight.

18 the Golden Age

18 is actually a good age, because your brain becomes more cognizant and aware of itself. It’s a good age to grow up, there’s biology involved with that, too. You’ve heard of the “Freshman 15” right? That’s part of it. The body reaches peak sexual maturity at that age, and also the brain begins to gather a sense of other. Any later, you could stunt people, any earlier you could make them grow up too fast. Just like shortly after turning 30 you reach the peak of your maturity, and can correctly guide other people. It’s just a mental maturity, it happens really fast, over the course of a few weeks. Like my squash growing out on my deck, it took one day for little nubs to turn into a full grown flower. In about two or three days they’ll turn into squash. Things happen very quickly, and not doing the right kind of pruning or preparation at the right time can kill the plant. It’s very precise. It’s the same with people, our stages of development are kind of understood historically. In most cultures 18 is the age people came out into society, and were presented as fully formed members. Just like a child can grow a foot and a half in a couple of months.

On Real Witchcraft

There is no “Meal infused with witchcraft.” So, the curse will not fall upon you. Just look at the hearts of those you dine with, if they are with you. If not, they will curse you with their hands, and seed hatred in your brethren. As that’s the only witchcraft. They will fill your mind with evil, and not good. They will cause you and tempt you to do what is not right, in order to have evidence against you, and testify that you are wicked.

That’s the only witchcraft. Which, if you give to the poor, and have a charitable heart toward your neighbor, and love your brother and do not slander him, even though you’ve sinned, you will be delivered.

Today

The birds eat the mulberries...
And it is okay, for they farm them
Looking at the branches, and monitoring it
Waiting for the berries to ripen.
I received a few fruit, but when strong
The Mulberry Tree will produce many fruits.
The turtle crosses the road faster than I'd
Ever seen a turtle run, and is unharmed.
The hot summer day is a good day to mow grass.
The squash are growing,
Before they shoot out their flowers;
They are little tender nubs now.