Dear,
Spinoza

A mechanical god, one with nature, the laws of physics and the laws of morality---impersonal, unaffected, is not a god. Lucretius is my current muse. And I love every verse of his. Every part of his poems, masterfully translated into my language, is beautiful. The entreaty to Venus, or love, the entreaty to abandoning religion because of its immoral nature. These are things I cautiously accept as true. However, though morals, science and nature are self evident in itself, this is not god.

You say God is impersonal, and does not interact with human beings. I completely disagree. Every aspect of my life proves there's providence behind it. Sometimes I'm amazed at how well God listens to me. Sometimes I'm even paranoid that some force malicious is listening to me, and bringing to bear all my prayers. But, that's not so. Rather, God does interact with men, He does change and bend the laws of physics, and He does have a personal relationship with His subjects.

It may seem narcissistic to believe that God listens... when in fact He actually does. And blatantly, I see your god being believed in in the end days. And a great disorder it will create. Because, there's one problem with your theory. Just one. If there is no one to judge---and morals are self evident---why follow them? If no consequence will fall eternally upon the brow of a man who rebels---certainly, men like Genghis Kahn and Nero had far more exorbitant pleasures than any men in history. The Aztecs, likewise, committed cannibalism without censure. It was praised.

While Lucretius is right, that religion is often a guise to the worst kinds of evil---so would an evil of sorts be created by believing all god were, is the forces of the universe. For, then nothing but man could make man accountable, and therefore, law---whether benevolent or not---would be the sole arbiter. Thus, naturally, rich men would be better suited for this system than the poor. The prideful than the humble. The warrior over the worker. Some may say this is always been--- True. But, it ought not be. And because it is, something must hold it accountable, otherwise the outcome is misery for the masses, and sublime pleasures for the few who rule them.

With that, I've studied history, and it seems to me that God had shown the Laws we ought to live by in three stages. First, with Hammurabi. Second with Moses. And third, with the Messiah Christ. And each dispensation, the law was revealed slowly, never changing but rather reaffirming the truth. For, in Abraham's day it was simply the invention of law that needed to be. In Moses' day it was the necessity for man to have relationship with his Creator. And finally in Christ, it was the necessity of understanding men are Sabbath Breakers, and need to be forgiven. 

With that being said, the law hasn't changed. In the Torah, it says a man guilty of innocent blood ought to stop and change his ways, and he will no longer be guilty of innocent blood. With that, God will change and rend the times and laws and seasons to place you far away from the old man, so that you forget him completely. For, that is the mystery of the Prophets and law, is mercy. And God---being far more advanced in mind than any of us---is the only one who can arbitrate and therefore cleanse our souls from wrongdoing. For the world is apt to judge so harshly that a summary offense will become a fatal fault, and a flagrant capital offense will be considered perfectly justifiable. And should either offense be made, God will cleans that offense from man with the Blood of Christ, therefore, making that man like he had never sinned.

If nothing proceeds from nothing
And matter is created through light---
Then it is perfectly logical
That the first thing God must say is
"Let there be light."

For the light proceeds from God,
And by light all matter was formed.
Therefore, God is the eternal force
From which all other things spring.

If the Omniverse is eternally recurring,
And multiverses merge within multiverses,
And universes are constantly being formed and dying,
And the Big Bang is an eternally recurring thing
Throughout the infinity of Space and Time,
Yet Time is a relative construct,
What exists outside of the known dimensions of Space/Time?
From there, it is where God said,
"Let there be Light."

For here, eternity is different
Than where time does not exist.

The Noble Lie ought to be understood
That it is a lie. That George Washington
Cut down a Cherry Tree and never lied;
That Abraham Lincoln travelled miles
To return a halfpenny, or Santa
The Tooth Fairy, the Easter Bunny, so
With the Hero Christopher Columbus
Who was incessant that the world was
Round, or Thomas Edison inventing
The modern world, or that mental woes
Turn up in innocent people. It ought
To be understood these lies are not true.

Yet, men ought to so live like they were true.
George Washington teaches us honesty;
And Abraham Lincoln taught equity'
Santa, the Easter Bunny and Fairy
Teach us that good behavior reward us
Christopher Columbus taught persistence
Thomas Edison teaches us genius
And believing mentally ill people
Are innocent cures them of the ailment.

Yet, we ought to walk knowing these lies;
In school, as young children, it ought to be 
Child's play, where then into adulthood
It is understood the things learned as youth
Were the G rated stories we needed.
For, Genocide, Rape, Political lies
Are not things we ought to teach our children.
And as adults, we ought to know what was
True about the Noble Lies we were told.
For, reality ought not be what we
Mimic, but rather the ideal world.
For, who knows? Maybe one day, knowing the
Lie is only a lie, but a noble
Lie, we can live like the lie were true, and
Then build a better state for our children.

Mental illness is caused by guilt.
Or, it is caused by trauma associated with guilt.
Or, it is caused by self-love.
Or, it is caused by fear.
Or, it is caused by hatred.
Or, it is caused by excessive grief.
Or, it is caused by sexual immorality.
Or, it is caused by neglect.

Psychosis is caused by guilt.
OCD is caused by guilt.
Narcissism is caused by being abusive.
Depression is caused by loss, and then associating the loss with a guilty conscience.
Paranoia is caused by guilt.
Anxiety is caused by guilt.
Bi-Polar is associated with sexual sin.
Anti-social personality disorder is associated with causing severe trauma to someone else.
Borderline Personality Disorder is caused by delinquent behavior and disobedience to authority.

It is not what goes into a man that causes uncleanliness
But what comes out of a man. That is what defiles the soul.

Aphorism 121. Capitalism is only evil if the rich horde all the wealth.

Aphorism 122. Communism is evil because it claims property is theft.

Aphorism 123. Socialism doesn't work; at the end, everyone would die from boredom.

Aphorism 124. Reincarnation and Karma are just a way to justify inequity; rather, if someone's life sucks, it was their previous life that bore the reason.

Aphorism 125. Karma doesn't exist. I see too many rich criminals and poor whom are the salt of the Earth.

Aphorism 126. If a man's hungry. Feed him bread. Don't pass him by and say, "I ought to teach him to fish."

Aphorism 127. Some men, by forces of chance, cannot have anything in this life. It is neither just, nor is it right, but it is a truth nonetheless. It is one of the reasons I believe in God.

Aphorism 128. It's good, as a youth, to want to right all the wrongdoings of the world. But, as you get older, you ought to see the true solution is to right what you have wronged yourself.

Aphorism 129. Every generation invents its own cuss words; the test of a generation, and how corrupt it was, is how many of those cuss words it coined.

Aphorism 130. A cuss word is wrong depending solely on its context---the bloody cloth, dog and fox were vulgarisms used in the Bible.

Aphorism 131. When Paul says, "Let your speech be wholesome, young men," it means not to be given to crude conversation. There are many such conversations, which, nary a taboo will be said.

Aphorism 132. Solomon says, "Do not be overly righteous, lest you destroy yourself." I think the meaning of this is not to be prudish.

Aphorism 133. When speaking of a woman's beauty, speak of her beauteously.

Aphorism 134. When speaking of a woman's beauty, your words will betray your own beauty.

Aphorism 135. Politics and Religion are necessary topics in a free society, but not sex.

Aphorism 136. A slippery slope argument is only so, when the syllogism's causal chain do not necessitate.

Aphorism 137. Moral corruption leads to more moral corruption. There is nothing illogical about that.

Aphorism 138. The phantasy of the mind soon frustrates, and it must then be acted upon.

Aphorism 139. Saying, "Fire" in a crowded theater is not the same as saying, "You're a sinner" to someone who is in danger of eternal damnation.

Aphorism 140. Any sin Paul listed in Romans 1, if presently partook, will not be forgiven.

Aphorism 141. Put the old man in the past; and the new man in the present.

Aphorism 142. If you must cuss or blaspheme, it's better you cuss.

Aphorism 143. Phenomenology of the written word is to share experiences with the author.

Aphorism 144. Word is the axiom that any expression has an understanding.

Aphorism 145. There is truth.

Aphorism 146. One can, if they listen, know what someone else had said.

Aphorism 147. The most narcissistic trait of modern culture, is the idea that we are self-contained to only our own experiences.

Aphorism 148. A story's purpose is to feel what others have felt. And to know why they have felt it.

Aphorism 149. An essay, a poem and a story are not always a solitary entity.

Aphorism 150. I looked at everything a man could do, and found nothing better for him than to eat from his labors.

Aphorism 101. One preoccupied with race is called a racist.

Aphorism 102. Grass is green because of chlorophyll; skin is brown because of melanin.

Aphorism 103. Every race has wisdom. It's usually what's shared between them that qualifies it so.

Aphorism 104. Church and State are separated; this does not excuse immoral politics.

Aphorism 105. The fault of the last two centuries was that we believed morals were ambiguous, and could only be found because God exists.

Aphorism 106. Moral truth is true, regardless of whether there is a God; rather, it is God's job to make sure men uphold the moral truth.

Aphorism 107. Justice often fails; this is why we ought to submit ourselves to a higher authority.

Aphorism 108. Social Justice, what does this mean? To riot? To burn? To steal? To covet? To murder?

Aphorism 109. Hopefully my last aphorism is the only one that becomes antiquated.

Aphorism 110. It is true that all civilizations were borne from Genocide.

Aphorism 111. It is true that all civilizations were built by slavery.

Aphorism 112. The black race has no special privilege that make it more benevolent than any other.

Aphorism 113. It's a trait common among educated folk to believe that Blacks aren't smart enough to do what Nazi Germany did. I, however, am hesitant to believe that.

Aphorism 114. The races are all equally gifted. It is simply numbers that make them unequal. For better or worse.

Aphorism 115. Poverty leads to less intelligence. It's a simple matter of nutrition.

Aphorism 116. Equity is a strong word; there ought to be equity, but not at the expense of equity.

Aphorism 117. If my aphorisms are offensive, then the truth is an offense.

Aphorism 118. Christianity offers the only cogent moral system, Old and New Testament.

Aphorism 119. Everyone deserves to go to hell.

Aphorism 120. If you do not believe in God, it doesn't change the fact that He exists and will ultimately judge.

Aphorism 51. The one preoccupied with narcissism is usually the most blatant narcissist.

Aphorism 52. Selfishness is what destroys civilizations.

Aphorism 53. Men who judge are often the same men who betray.

Aphorism 54. When a good man dies, consider he is in a better place and no longer must suffer life.

Aphorism 55. When a bad man dies, consider in what ways you made him.

Aphorism 56. Do not offend a soul of inferior mind, as then they will seek only to destroy you.

Aphorism 57. Do not pin a strange dog to the ground, lest it bite you.

Aphorism 58. The world is for the wicked to rule.

Aphorism 59. Racism was a certain generation's only sin.

Aphorism 60. God has given our struggles to overcome, and it is for our own pleasure.

Aphorism 61. The daemon inside of us is more dangerous than the shadow inside of others.

Aphorism 62. We are each quantum entangled with the Person of Death; our choice is whether we let Christ burden it, or we burden it by ourselves.

Aphorism 63. A false pastor has an evil eye, and a slack arm.

Aphorism 64. A good pastor will put himself into harm's way for you.

Aphorism 65. Poetry can be perfectly understood, yet the foolish are more interested in what it reveals about themselves.

Aphorism 66. Exact knowledge of any poem is impossible, yet each poem has a universal moral to tell.

Aphorism 67. The author is dead, and that is why so many are foolish.

Aphorism 68. My observations may have been made before, but I came to them on my very own.

Aphorism 69. The Blaspheme of the Holy Spirit is not a word we say, but a Word we refuse to say.

Aphorism 70. Christian hedonism is an antithetical statement.

Aphorism 71. I saw a rich man with a wooden crown, and Eros at his breast refusing to be passed on to the next man.

Aphorism 72. I have concluded life is vanity, save one thing, and that is love.

Aphorism 73. People in groups aren't hard to understand, but those who understand them are usually the outcasts.

Aphorism 74. Psychology is a useless field, when it's being used to teach self love.

Aphorism 75. The faithful man is not a good man, but rather a man who knows he's not good; yet tries his hardest nonetheless.

Aphorism 76. Grace salvation is that an offender like me can be forgiven---it does not excuse me from doing good works.

Aphorism 77. The worst thing the church ever did, was teach the Earth was created yore 6,000 years, and that Christ's moral teachings were suggestions rather than laws.

Aphorism 78. In the days of my grandfather, men knew the Earth was old, but it didn't bother them.

Aphorism 79. Faith is not believing without evidence---it is what makes sense out of the evidence.

Aphorism 80. Nietzsche was wrong.

Aphorism 81. Morality is self-evident. However, so are the laws of quanta.

Aphorism 82. Homosexuality does hurt people by the very nature of it being selfish.

Aphorism 83. Transgenderism does hurt people by the very nature of it being a lie.

Aphorism 84. Where most men are liars and selfish, there can be no true joy.

Aphorism 85. Love is best described as an additive force; selfishness is best described as a divisive force.

Aphorism 86. Hatred and self-loathing are just bitter forms of self-love.

Aphorism 87. Self-love, by its very wording, is selfish.

Aphorism 88. The worst kind of man is a covetous man.

Aphorism 89. Kindness can soften the most bitter heart.

Aphorism 90. Cut off from yourself the darkness; Christ is the knife.

Aphorism 91. Throw your sin into the sea, and let it drown with Christ.

Aphorism 92. When Christ raised from the dead, so did you. That is what Baptism represents.

Aphorism 93. Baptism is what Jeremiah called the "New Circumcision".

Aphorism 94. Jesus, by name, is revealed to be the Messiah in the Book of Zechariah.

Aphorism 95. Abraham had a covenant with God, too; that His Seed, Christ, would bless all the nations of the Earth.

Aphorism 96. Let Christ burden your Daemon, so rest from that wicked thing.

Aphorism 97. Sin in season is decadent sex on the marriage bed, and gluttony at a marriage feast; it is murder during war, and a crude word in literature.

Aphorism 98. Do not refrain from sex if married; doing so is a little like a form of adultery.

Aphorism 99. Sex ought to remain for the marriage bed; otherwise, children are born without loving families.

Aphorism 100. The greatest lie we are told is that it is noble to survive.

When you read this
You will wonder, "What is he saying?
"What is the point?
"Why does any of this matter?"

I will blush.
I don't have an answer that will satisfy most of you.
It just is a discovery I made
That if you listen close enough
A true meaning can be found in any poem---
One which actually is there,
Not merely conjured by the reader's mind.

You might rebel against that,
But the entire crux of civilization hinges on it.
Language and Law are what separate us from the beasts
And the more we try to divest attention to what's in our own hearts
The less aware we are of what's in others'.

And I fear walking through this earth
Alone, never being connected with someone else.
Just me and my thoughts.
Just me and my own laws.
Rather, I wish to find in words
What is truly there
So I am not alone.
And I believe it is God that allows us to stay connected.

My story is I was a wretched child
Who did whatever pleased him.
I took what wasn't mine,
I hurt whomever I wanted,
And I felt no remorse.
I was happy, free, and lawless.

Then, I fell in love.
I gained a conscience in that moment.

Then, I found God.
And I confessed my whole life's sin
To the police, spent five months in jail,
And two years on probation.

My problem I wished to solve
Was to prove there is truth.
I first started my journey when a young man
And discovered Pi was the circumference of a Circle
Whose diameter was one.
I then discovered the Square Root of Two;
And doing remedial math,
Through trial and error,
I got a few digits in
And discovered there was truth.

I then applied that reason to language.
That there must be truth;
I had discovered through Plato
Jung and Freud the Psychological truth
Of archetype--that men share a body of knowledge
Through their shared experience,
And this shared body of knowledge creates strings of meaning
Which are shared by men who've been exposed to it.
I had found the Shadow being described in the best poets
And discovered humanity's dark side.
I had also found the Light in the Child Jesus.

Then, while reading Wordsworth,
I discovered there is objective meaning
In what poets write,
And that within words are meaning---
Within poetry is meaning
And one ought to listen in order to discover the meaning.
It became clear to me that the world around me
Was abandoning this truth as fast as I was discovering it.
C. S. Lewis called it "Bulverism"
Socrates called it "Sophism"
Lao Tsu called it "Straying from the Way."

In that, I had found parallels between cultures
That concepts were being discovered simultaneously
And without knowledge of one another;
It was just given different words.
Tao and Logos were essentially the same thing.
Confucius and Mozi had discovered the bulk of the Ten Commandments.
Hammurabi discovered the bulk of Jewish Law.
Christ affirmed the whole teaching,
Adding to the Law Forgiveness.
For, by that Law I found every man was a Sabbath Breaker---
Therefore, every man deserved the punishment of death.
And, miraculously, the Child was born
To bear Death---our Daemon, or as Isaiah 53 called it our "Contagion".
And I had found these strings of meaning
Virgin births,
Moral systems identical to Judaism and Christianity,
That all word---for the fact is witness testimony
From a bulk amount of data can always pinpoint even the most specific truth---
That Christ's words were true
From all this witness testimony around the world.
Therefore, He must be God Come in the Flesh.

For, I had searched meaning and truth
And found in the concrete world
Axioms and laws about physics and language.
And I had concluded there is knowledge.
And because there is knowledge,
There must be a God.
And given the testimony of the Man Jesus Christ
I found it obvious that He must be God
For no other had condensed truth into so cogent a philosophy.
Yet, as you know, Elon,
For truth to be certain, it must take a leap of faith.