Pharaoh’s Vine

O! You whose dreams I possess

A foreshadow of the great uprising of wickedness;—

Who are you? I do not know.

Yet, the wickedness of your brow doth show.

Every day, your heart I am woken to by a fright.

Entering into maids; how dark is your light.

 

I say this to you, my beloved:

I see you enter into the war

I see the body mound which made your heart sure

Of the battle with the great wicked things.

How you are making a future where nothing’s pleasant but for kings.

 

I had told my adversary this:

I have to have both our burdened dreams

Mine when I am sleeping

Belongs to one of the kings.

Yours, yours, it belongs to me.

 

I saw Pharaoh spreading his vine

In the warships of Babylon.

And I… I… I helped him.

O! Let it not be so, so!

Yet… if I am guilty,

Let me never, ever grow old.

The Trespasser

A river in your soul flows through

You, o Man of God.

 

Do not judge the little ones in the faith.

Take the hint, and over it

Let the channel in your heart

Flow toward God.

Let not my rebuke fall on deaf ears…

For the rumor you heard was false.

I had not prevented any from walking in.

I had… as it were.. advised them not to walk in.

Then, I had said to them,

When I saw them about to walk in,

“If the preacher repented, tell me

“And I shall sit among them.”

Those you saw were witches

The very ones who hate my soul.

 

I am sorry for yelling.

It is why I walked away.

I could not hold my tongue

O mighty river.

 

Let your flowing loch

Pour out into an ocean of fruit.

Let not your name be of the mighty rivers of Tyre

But let your name be Harper Church.

 

I love you.

And thank you for your blessing…

Now I give you a blessing:

Your name is Harper Church.

No longer is it “Trespasser”

For if you repent

I shall repent

O my love,

My faithful one

Who has fed the multitudes with good bread.

 

“Do not forsake me!

And I will not forsake you,”

Says my LORD.

Yet, remember your first love

O Ephesus, that way your lamp-stand is not removed!

 

Test my words.

If there be any lacking,

Then rebuke me.

I shall listen…

For you should have said,

“Bring with you another witness,”

And then I would have been silent.

New Project in the Works

I have a new project in the work. Will be working on it for a while. Might not be as active with my blog these upcoming months. But, I will be posting periodically.

 

New Project:

 

O, the Nethanim in their warpaints

Cross the open valleys.

The androgynous masses of death

In their shewo forms,

Man or wo, none know

They fling themselves down to the battles.

Yet, the trees, Nethanims, Stags, Wolves and Bear

Cross the valleys and meet them.

The battle unlooses,

As they bring the weary soul

To Zion, safely hidden in the shelter

And pinions of the LORD.

How Hell Comforts Me

After having sinned…

A sin between God and I…

I laid on my bed last night.

 

I considered that I

I am happy hell exists.

It comforts me

Because if I had sinned

Worthy of damnation

Hell comforts me

Because I would know it is just.

I had stopped my sin

Knowing it was stupid.

It is a private sin

But if the whole world would know

The world would all go to hell who knew it;

All who claimed I am unworthy of Christ.

 

For, the stupid sins I commit

I plainly know are wrong.

But such things as Murder,

Rape, Adultery, Homosexuality,

Trusting on my hands to save me,

Those same hands that sinned last night,

These a man goes to hell for.

Christ saved us from our sin,

However. Paul from murder.

Moses from Murder.

David from Rape and Murder

Me from Adultery.

But, no murderer has eternal life.

No sinner, who continues in their sin;

Even one who backslides into it;

Has eternal life.

Paul was saved from murder.

Had he murdered again,

He would not be saved.

Had I fornicated again,

I would not be saved.

I would have backsliden into my sin.

 

I had thought long and hard on that verse.

Of a magnitude,

Hell comforts me.

Having been there, I understand it.

It is horrendous.

Horrendous enough to ruin an entire two days

Even being there.

But… I have first hand knowledge

That God’s hell is good;

It is a prison for the treacherous.

Because if I had committed,

Or backsliden into my sin,

Even with the willful mistake

I made last night—

A sin between God and myself

Which no man can judge—

Then I deserve hell.

I would gladly accept hell

If I had sinned.

Because God’s wrath is part of His character.

And my sin last night—

If all men would know it—

Is between God and I.

But, having hope in Christ Jesus

I will never do it again.

And grace showed that the thing I feared most

Was not really worth fearing at all.

It is all just dreams.

And if for dreams

The world would condemn me,

My LORD has hope in His bosom.

The Writing on the Wall

The writing was on the wall.

I had not forsaken the world

Therefore my name would be an everlasting reproach.

The wars of my childhood convicted me

As the gun I had fought wars with was pieced together

Before my very friends.

I awoke to hear a woman sighing in pleasure.

I had thought I had grieved my God…

But it was the sighing of a woman in pleasure.

Written on the wall was “Megiddo.”

Megiddo is a punishment for sinners.

I awoke from the dream

And cried out to my God,

“Do not make my name an everlasting reproach!”

He listened.

 

I had dreamt that I was a contemptible man.

That I had murdered.

That I had destroyed

I had committed adultery with every fair woman in the land.

Those who go out to war,

They shall be killed by the sword.

Those who tarry for their brother’s wife

They shall be put to death.

 

There was an overwhelming flood.

My dad and I were swimming

And the floods were up to our necks.

Great was the flood.

Beneath was my brother whose name I spoke aloud,

Who had drowned.

I had grieved because he had drowned.

My dad had said, “He hadn’t drowned.”

But, yea, he was drowned.

We both, however, my dad and I, were swimming strong

And survived the flood.

 

I sat at a church.

There was a band.

Those I knew who were listening, at my right side

Fled my side for another

Who tried to murder me,

But I had ministered the Gospel to him

And made great peace with him.

They fled to him

But the singer sung, “You should have let it go.”

She spoke of the world.

I had asked a prophet,

And he said, “Are you sure they didn’t leave

“To see the band better?”

“No,” I replied, “They left me

“To sit with that other man.”

I saw that same prophet in the Spirit

When he was but a lad,

And he said, “God will touch you.”

I trembled, knowing either good or evil awaited me.

 

Let God be my judge.

Not I, not the world

Not my brethren.

All I know is this:

“Jesus is the LORD,”

And with that,

I have failed many times before.

I have sinned many times before.

I have hated and called my brother “Raca”.

I will not call him “Raca” again.

I, rather, will say all this guilt belongs to me.

Though, I am not sure whether it does

Because I have no wont of it.

And if the guilt does belong to me

Lay it upon Christ, and not I.

Not I! Let me never have done

The things I have dreamt about.

George Carlin

Oh how the intellectual is complicit in his own enslavement.

This is why George Carlin is wrong.

 

Rather than make God a tyrant…

What His lack provides

Is the force of wills on one another

And the force of wills to the force of blood.

 

Our framers saw democracy as self evident.

That God was a foundation stone for our rights as human beings.

The snide intellectual jeers at right and wrong…

Yet right and wrong were what gave them the freedom to think.

 

If freedom is only found in a gun…

Then it is not freedom.

One man’s gun defines freedom,

Then that freedom means freedom only for himself.

 

Freedom is found in reason.

For then all are able to taste it.

All can see it is self evident.

All can see that Freedom subsists by itself.

Yet… we need God,

Otherwise despotism comes

In Freedom’s wool.

Notes on My Poem Transubstantiation

Transubstantiation:

 

It’s a little difficult to understand. I know. But it plays between Milton’s Paradise Lost and Keat’s Hyperion.

Hyperion is about Democracy being overthrown by a Theocratic power. The poem is criticizing Milton’s discourse about faith. Keats is using Milton’s own imagery to say that Satan was not a fallen angel, but was a Titan, and thus, the satire begins there. The imagery is obviously about the Freemasons, who built the American Democracy. It is simply saying that Reason—or rather an age of reason—is superior to one based on power.

Contrast that to Milton, who was misunderstood by Keats. Milton’s criticism was reason’s foray into dangerous ideas. Such things that Satan is depicted as using reason to try and convince his cohorts—and the reader—to be complicit in murder. So, reason in Milton is being akin to justifying crime, which is not far off from actually being the case that reason is beginning to do this. Because we come dangerously close to reasoning away morality as a culture, and also our freedoms.

My poem is using the archetype of Islam as the White Horse, basing it in Keat’s understanding. That Keats is criticizing a Theocratic regime overthrowing the Democracies of America and the emerging ones in Europe. So, I’m ignoring Milton’s schema, to draw a comparison. Hyperion is about the fall of democracy.

The third image is Cesar Borgia. Who, as is often noted, appears in portraits of Jesus. The poem gives a short discourse on Borgia being the factual state of the painting, but one imprints Christ over him because—as the poem will draw a metaphor here—that is who God sees in us. We—by very nature of being fleshly creatures—are like Borgia. We are incredibly wicked. Cesar Borgia is a type of our flesh selves, and the spirit is the image we imprint on the picture of Borgia. No longer is it Borgia that we see, but it is rather Christ. The Poem also complies Caesar Borgia as the builder of the democracies, but rather it is what God has done with it that my poem is interested in.

Underlying that is the same with our democracy. Though it was created with the understanding that Democracy was Satanic, it rather was inverted on itself. The foundation laid by the builders of our democracy was Christ. So by that very reason, Christ was the foundation stone—or philosopher’s stone—of truth. Therefore, though democracy was considered a Satanic regime by many scholars, the foundation of Democracy was principled on Christ when it was established here in America—hence John Locke and others who greatly influenced the founding fathers—so that the society could be constructed and stable, and it wouldn’t collapse itself. Thus, the flesh of the regime was superimposed by Christ, to make it right. It is the same way with Christians. Underneath, in fact, we are corrupt and evil. But, with Christ as our cover, what God sees is Jesus in us. Just like we see Jesus in portraits of Cesar Borgia. Same with the Democracy.

So, the poem “Transubstantiation” is dealing with the removal of that spiritual truth, to uncover the flesh of the truth, and therefore undermine the values we uphold in our democracy. The very appeal to “Fact” evidence is counter intuitive to reason, with two facts. A: Reason requires an ending point, and Christ is that ending point. He is the one who substantiates our values, and doesn’t regress us backward into despotism. What is called a “Philosopher’s Stone.” B: The facts cannot substantiate an ethos. They never could, which was why Christ was used to build the foundation of American democracy; otherwise, freedom would unhinge.

Therefore, the poem “Transubstantiation” is talking about the spiritual self being superimposed on both the individual and society. The fact that men are not perfect, but God uses them. And therefore the White Regime—the false regime—coming in tries to substantiate itself on Power instead of reason. Which, to Keats it would be man’s power being criticized, as I don’t believe he believed in God. But I do for this reason, that what was—as a fleshly thing—deprived and evil can be Transubstantiated into something good, be it Democracy or our own selves. The white regime is trying to hand the reigns back to Caesar Borgia, which is why he’s typed with the White Horse in Revelation. The overthrow of the Red Regime—which Red is often typed as evil, and it’s meant to draw some moral distance—by the white regime is considered bad, because now all that is left is the flesh, which is likened to artificial morality without the Philosopher’s Stone of Christ to hinge reason on.

All Cults are Founded on

All cults are founded on

Man trying to make perfect

What is man’s.

To make men omnipotent.

There is never mystery.

It, rather than know the power of God,

Will strike to the core what God has accomplished

With our brokenness,

And point to it as the proof that the cult is all knowing

And in need of salvation by it

Through it alone.

 

It deems itself more powerful than God

That all of men’s engines God could not possibly use.

It does not understand what grace is.

Transubstantiation

Hyperion, Caesar, ruler of the red pyramid and obelisk

Allied with Saturn, allied with Memory,

The Brick-Layers, the fallen idols…

 

How you paved your streets with Red Clay,

How you’ve set your jewels

To lay the body of God

To be the straw of your street’s brick.

You found wisdom, o’ Memory

And allied with Hyperion;—

You fought hard to preserve Athens and Rome.

 

White streets—laid with the sands of the shore

And sandstone spires and great shingled roofs—

From there cast all war upon Athens and Rome.

The armies marched, to dreg the dregs

Of Hyperion’s estate, o’ Athens.

The Greek gods, those idle men and women

Not gods at all, threw down the stones

Of the Titans, o’ Athens and Rome.

White was their horse—with the castles of Sandstone—

Who came to conquer.

 

O’ Hyperion, cast down from thy bench in heaven

Cast down, cast down, o’ my soul sees thou art cast down

With all the idols you brought with you.

Those locusts, those chameleons,

Whom Paradise Lost.

For wisdom you championed

To let reason build…

You and Saturn laid down Christ

As the Philosopher’s Stone.

Yet… there were gods among you

O’ Titans. gods who wished to lay

Caesar Borgia as their stone.

For the picture of Jesus we see

It is Caesar Borgia.

 

The man is Caesar Borgia;

The flesh; the god we worship in ourselves.

Willing to tear down the regimes of old

And to build upon the ruins.

Spiritually, we see Jesus working in our hearts…

For we are all, as our flesh

The object in the frame.

So despicable.

We are all Borgia

Yet, God sees Christ in us

So the old man is washed away.

 

The regimes of Wisdom laid Christ as their Philosopher’s Stone…

Though Hyperion built it, though Saturn laid the stone,

Though the obelisk is red, and though the pyramid is large

The Philosopher Stone was Christ.

Thus, this ugly regime which the Bricklayers built

Was seen, in spiritual sense, what is not flesh

But Spirit, and thus made clean.

Though it was Red as Scarlet

It was now White as Snow.

 

However, reason was done away

And the flesh of the painting was all that remained.

The white falsehood of the Sandstone Castles

Which are built tall, where Borgia, the flesh,

Rather than Christ the Spirit

Reigns in all.

If the new man is unseen

Then our Kingdoms fall.

 

And so, the Bricklayers, the Titans

Became the very gods cast down to earth.

They, now, try to build their white city on earth

By the flesh of a man seen in portraits;—

But not our Christ.

 

So… as with men, so with mankind

What was blood red

Let the image of Christ be shed upon us,

So that the old man is no longer seen

Though it factually existed.

Let us show forth as white snow.

Let the goodness of Christ

Shewn from us, and within us,

Who are Transubstantiated into the image of Christ.