All the Reasons I Could Go To Hell

Just today,

I woke up late.

I watched a show

Where a man put leeches on his eyeballs;

Just two seconds of it.

I have holes in all my clothes.

 

Just yesterday,

I woke up late.

I didn’t mow the lawn.

I got cranky with a local clerk.

I thought someone had stolen from me when he didn’t.

 

Just two days ago,

I woke up late.

I back-talked my dad.

I accused a friend in my heart of a grievous sin.

I was afraid.

 

Just three days ago,

I woke up late.

I was suspicious about my friend.

I back talked my dad.

I was angry.

I talked nonsense.

I said things that weren’t true.

I didn’t speak the truth in my heart.

I was afraid.

 

Just four days ago,

I woke up late,

When I was praying, I asked for something that was not good.

I feared something that did not happen.

I was angry.

I let myself get confused.

I argued with my brother.

I provoked arguments with people.

I had strife and bitterness.

 

This is the last four days.

Any one of these is worthy of going to hell.

This was the extent of my sin those four days

The whole of it,

Yet, any one of those

Could be the reason I go to hell.

This is why I need Jesus;

Because he wipes the slate clean

So I can still live,

And try to be the best person I can.

What the Tortoise Said to Achilles; My Version

After having a race,

In which the Tortoise won

Achilles sat beside the Tortoise

And began challenging him.

 

“How did you win?”

Asked Achilles.

 

The Tortoise said,

“Because God made things

“Men cannot understand.”

 

Achilles then said,

“How can there be a God?

“Like I can prove three equal lines make

“An equilateral triangle

“I can prove your God does not exist

“By proving the Fermentation of Species;

“Because, certainly your book is relegated to myth

“By proving the fermentation of species.”

 

The Tortoise said,

“Certainly, there are things

“That man cannot understand.

“There certainly is a God,

“For I am a tortoise,

“And have knowledge

“Of God being that I am so;

“I observed Him a few times

“In my life.”

 

Achilles then said,

“By Modus Ponen

“I can say that your God does not exist!

“Because if there is a fermentation of species

“It must follow that God does not exist.”

 

The Tortoise replied,

“I do not believe species fermenting proves

“My God does not exist.”

 

“Then, can you at least believe in Modus Ponen?”

Asked Achilles.

 

The Tortoise said,

“Alas! This argument again, Achilles!

“How many times shall I have to rebut it?

“For you lie all the time

“About my answer.

“You say I cannot accept Modus Ponen!

“Well, I do! But you forget Modus Tollens!

“Because there is a God

“It CANNOT be true

“That evolution proves He does not exist.”

 

To which, Achilles then posited again,

“But, can you believe that Modus Ponen exists?

“And therefore, Modus Ponen exists?”

 

The Tortoise,

This time,

Walked away because it was Achilles

Who did not understand logic.

Rosemonde

There was a daughter

Of a certain Prince,

Known as the Great Strong Bull.

His Daughter’s name was

Rosemonde.

Rosemonde, the blessed defender,

Loved her father with all she had.

She fought for him

Went to war for him

Yet knew nothing of his deep sin.

Rosemonde was fierce in loyalty to whomever she loved.

She gave her unwavering support.

 

Her father used her war to injure his enemies

And would send her out on divine mission

To use the daughter Rosemonde

To war up in chain-mail

And like that blessed Joan of Arc

Would win all wars.

 

She was an equal price to lose for victory

Yet, Rosemonde loved her father with all her heart.

To the wars, through the valleys, Rosemonde

Gave her father a wicked name;

Infamous with all bloodshed,

So they said, “Rosemonde comes

“For the Bull, to wage her bloody war.”

 

O! Rosemonda! Why do you shed your

Blood for unworthy sires!

One of the Thirteen!

 

The bull was soon to be deposed

By the warriors Tavid and Zelek.

The great company of Nethanim did fight

The Maobitess Rosemonde

And all her hordes; Those of the children

Of the Bull.

 

Rosemonde was beaten, and had nowhere to turn

Thus, she turned to religion for help.

She turned, and had gained favor with Judah’s King

Who heard of all her sins;

Who realized it was a wicked man

Whom she served all her life;—

Even her own beloved Father.

 

So, Rosemonde threw down her spun cloths of war

And surrendered to Christ for a time.

Yet, soon came the Priestess Zerah

Who claimed that only the language of the Jews

Would suffice in worship.

She claimed that men must have to preserve the law

In their hearts, and so abstain from meats

Abstain from drink;

Abstain from all things unlawful

Which also meant to kill.

Zerah, the Ethiopian Priestess

Was this leader, whose self-strength was the Law of Christ

To execute judgment upon the sinners.

 

She had many great warriors underground

The elvish sorts, who tinkered with flesh

To rise from the ground and depose

The “Evil Hegemony” of Judah.

For, Judah was “evil” for his dogmas

So she believed strongly in Ethiopia’s lies;—

The additions of the Hebrew Fables of Enoch

And Book of Jubilee.

 

She spent years formulating plots

And found Rosemonde to be a great warrior of renown

Who now murdered for Zerah,

The Queen of the Damned.

 

War bastioned near

As Zerah fought against all righteous governments.

For established authority was her aught enemy,

And what was not established,

This was the good which must needs rise up

With her hordes. So, guns and butter

They did store, for twenty aught years,

Planning their uprising.

 

Rosemonde and her hundreds of thousands

Of sisters camped with the Ethiopian Zerah

Waiting for the time to strike.

Yet, Rosemonde secretly planned to set her father free

And back on the throne

But Zerah wished to set herself there

Thinking she were good authority.

 

Thus, the army set its heels against Israel

And Judah, believing even itself to be Israel and Judah.

For, the mystery of the Jews must be complete—

They did say—

To make the Law published, and observed

So also to stone the sinners

And to kill because men had not observed their Sabbaths.

For, disobeying the Sabbath was punished by death

Thus, death the army of 1,000,000 were ready

To unleash ‘pon men;

For, it was Death that they secretly

Did the bidding, that very Death.

 

Zerah and Rosemonde laid their traps

Setting up ambushes against the peoples Israel.

For, this Synagogue of Satan waited

And crept, desiring man’s blood to pay

For their sins, but forgot the Man’s blood

Who had already paid for their sins.

For, they worshiped through the Sentence of the Law,

And through law, gave themselves license to kill.

 

Sprung up, the armies of the Elvish wos and Rosemonde’s sisters,

And Zerah’s Ethiopian hordes

Amassed a strong war against the Nations Judah

And Israel.

 

Oh, Rosemonde! Your deeds are worse

For loyalty!

And in your good heart

Has been tempted by love

To thwart even this!

 

Array yourselves for battle!

 

There, the battle lines stood in glimmering rows

The Ethiopian hordes possessed chariots

Three hundred.

War was brought to Judah’s plains

And in glimmering rows

Did the arrows fly from the million

Of Zerah’s army

With the Moabitess Rosemonde.

 

Yet, Judah’s men rushed in

With supremely smaller force

And did block their arrows

With shield and aided gusts.

The arrows all blew,

All over, for wind was an ally!

The elves in combat lines drew their swords

Yet were battered

By a smaller force of Nethanim

Whom one could slaughter

One-grands Ethiopian

With seventy swift blows.

 

The winds cracked

And the lightnings shod forth

From the stormy gale that hailed over

The mountains of Judah.

The King of Judah,

A man of double heart,

Did on this day have strong, Lion-Heart

As he on chariot dismounted

And crashed the steel of Silver Sting

Upon the swords of Zerah’s Ethiopians.

Broken the Damascene swords asunder

Asa slashed the belly of blackened Ethiopians

With sword. The Whitened Moabites

He did bash over the head, and split twain.

Their blood ran thick on the battle ground.

Their arrows were pierced by winds.

The lightenings and thunders frightened their chariots’

Horses, for it was fierce thunder the likes of which

The great war horses had never seen

For they now knew it angered the LORD to battle!

So, they ran through their own ranks,

Uncontrolled, striking down the Moabite and the Ethiopian.

Zerah and Rosemonde were slaughtered

Before the faces of Judah

In bloody bands and bloody strings.

 

The word reached that Red Bull

That his daughter was slain.

Not for pity, but for cunning

He now forged a war against Israel.

Modern Art is Corrupt

I have a writing disability.

That means I cannot paint.

I literally, physically

Cannot paint.

 

So, if there are modern art pieces

That I can actually, feasibly do,

Without any training

With my crippled hand

That cannot draw a straight line

For the life of me,

This is why I’m not an author.

This is why no publisher accepted me.

This is why I cannot make a living.

 

What is the correlation?

Rather, the causation is that

Poop is patronized

While disciplined artists cannot make a dime.

Rather, you have to be a savant

To make it in the art world

Actually drawing good pieces of art.

Only if you were painting Leonardos at 5

Do you make it in the art world.

If you paint them at 29,

You’re stucked.

 

High quality

Means just having no discipline.

When a few stars

And a little rainbow

Circle gets to be 125,000 dollars

Like a five year old had painted it

And copies of my work do not sell.

Rather, if they are, Amazon is hiding it from me.

If a five year old had painted a good piece of art

I’ve actually seen it before.

It’s marvelous!

But if I did a finger painting

At five years old,

It shouldn’t be worth the paint that splattered it.

Unless you’re my mother.

 

But no… good art is not patronized.

Great artists are not given the chance they need

To eat.

Because undisciplined artists

Make a living, while the disciplined among us

Starve.

This is called corruption.

The man who works hard

Gets nothing.

The man who makes a doodle

After sleeping all day

His work is worth 125,000 dollars.

 

That, or someone is stealing from me.

Or, maybe it’s a little bit of both.

 

Analysis of the Herb Leech by Joseph Campbell

I've seen in this writer something prophetic. Some kind of insight. I did not know he was writing so contemporary; I thought he was writing in the eighteen hundreds. Generally, the reason why I'm so interested in it is the schema of a very normal delusion, that being a brain parasite of some sort that causes the illness of Schizophrenia.

So, this is what influenced my poem about the "Yeerk"; was I read this poem the Herb-Leech in my Barnes and Nobles' leather bound A Treasury of Irish Literature, and was like, "Well, I'm having really bad dreams, and have a lot of problems with xyz." And, there must be some mythological reference here to a mythology that Joseph Campbell once read. But the poem is talking about dreams, and the fact is that they have a reach into the person's mental health. When a delusion enters into the dream sphere, it begins to reach into the conscious and begins to be believed. And the mythology, literally here, is not so much being believed, but rather is manifesting in the dream.

But, the poem is definitely dealing with Schizophrenia. And "Schizophrenia" is often not having a filter in day to day activity. That means that everything is going to be interpreted as it is, and the brain is going to put all that information together. A good example of this is the rotating mask. The Schizophrenic sees it rotating the correct way, but the normal mind sees it with a filter which makes the illusion as if it span in both directions. So, Schizophrenia is a lack of having those filters.

At the end of the song, there's talk of the Murrain Stone. That right there, "Murrain" means sickness. It's speaking of mental illness, specifically, schizophrenia. Because anyone who believes, and I quote "All things on earth/to me are known" because of the "Murrain Stone", then it's obviously saying outright a man does not have omnipotence with this line. The poem is rather talking about Schizophrenia, with regard to an omnipotence delusion. It's impossible for a man to know all things, so the poem is talking about something else.

Which, seeing he got conflated with other religions---and this is why I really would discourage people from learning about religions other than Christianity---is that he must have picked up a delusion from believing in Folk Tales, giving him the "Murrain Stone." Or Schizophrenia. Because experience with the Mythological---as he puts it in an essay I was doing research on---is something I think ought not happen. There's only one God, that's Jesus Christ. And there's a ton of other religions that are not Jesus Christ. They have other revelations, and it is a sickness when they are revealed; that is, if the magic of the superstition reveals itself it is a sickness.

When I look at this, my mind thinks of the "Yeerks", as if they were some kind of schizophrenic pathogen. As if the mental illness of Joseph Campbell, by reading into Mythology too much---because that is where the pathogen takes root---is being likened to a Brain Leech of some kind. As if mythology can be a pathogenic cause of schizophrenia; which Campbell would not accept this thought, but I find it accurate. There are other pathogens, too, like the Truman Show, or generally speaking any source of literature that skews the mind from the one solitary truth, and that is Christ.

Which, now the poem makes sense, that the Herb-Leech is his Schizophrenia. It is a delusion he's dealing with, something similar to a Yeerk, and Schizophrenia can be metaphorically linked to this science fiction concept. Which, the way to beat it, and the path to a healthy lifestyle, are to overcome the illness with love. To simply love; that is actively work at becoming a better and more empathetic person. Because I believe it is something like the "Error of Balaam" as talked about in the Bible. He was a so called "Prophet" and named his prophecies, but it is was then reinforced when he saw a Donkey talk. Delusory tendencies, with research to back them up with schemas, then start manifesting in negative behaviors such as fortune telling, and then when some of those predictions might come true it can lead to OCD or Post Traumatic Stress. Which, ultimately brings the illness to a much worse standing when the things we've fortune told came true. It makes us believe we have power.

Which, seeing his mentions here of the different myths that must have spurred it on, I think his dreams are actually spurring on the mythologies. That maybe he has some latent understanding of them, forgets them, dreams them, and then finds them, reinforcing the schizophrenia. Which, external stimuli that proves a delusion drives someone mad, into the depths of Schizophrenic tendencies. It's imperative that one understand that, and try their best not to prove a Schizophrenic's delusions. Because external stimuli that proves a delusion, will only reinforce the delusion, making it stronger in the individual.

So, the Herb-Leech is Joseph Campbell's mental illness.

Campbell, Joseph. "The Herb Leech". A Treasury of Irish Literature. Sterling Publishing Co., Barnes and Nobles Classics Edition, 2017. Text.

It’s All in the Heart

Yeerk = Demon Possession.

Baal Vision = Yeerk.

 

We have a pandemic of Demon Possession.

It’s all in the heart.

 

To cure the demon,

Cease from your sin.

Jesus Christ is Come in the Flesh.

 

Jesus Christ is the LORD.

 

I came to Animorphs the other day

And saw them in there.

I forgot about the book.

We need to understand there

Are no such things as aliens.

There are no such things

As Yeerks.

But there are such things as demons

And right now we have a society encumbered by possessed individuals.

 

Whatever your sin is,

You have to beat it.

You have to be stronger than it.

Jesus Christ is Come in the Flesh.

 

When Aliens come to earth

You have to be especially careful not to call them extraterrestrials.

They are simply demons.

Like those little floating things you catch on Pokemon Go

That’s all they are.

And everyone shares a hallucination

Because of sin.

 

Cease from considering the knowledge of our times.

It is all chaff.

The LORD is Jesus Christ.

God is good.

 

I will be proven right.

LORD, My God!

LORD, my God!

Let me have pleasures in your tabernacle.

Let me see your vineyards, and your tabrets of gold.

LORD, the wicked man with mischievous devices

Rises up against me.

LORD, to where should I turn?

 

LORD, to Whom shall I turn?

Shall I turn to the Egyptian

Whose strength is Pharaoh?

Shall I turn to the Assyrian

Who is Your rod

To break the wicked nations?

Shall I turn to Sheshak

With all his greatness?

Where? Where shall I turn?

Whom shall I turn to?

 

LORD. in these nations there is no help.

Though my friends rise up against me

Though a host encamps against me

LORD, I know You are with me.

LORD, I know Your strength will feed me

Against the wind of their chaff

And their devices.

 

LORD, I am greatly anguished

So that I cannot sleep.

My flesh groans all night

Because of my mourning

And my sleep is very thin.

LORD, when I awake, LORD

Are the winds ever against me?

Surely You know, LORD.

 

To Whom shall I trust?

To Whom shall I go for answers?

The whirring winds?

LORD, You are a God Who is near

And before the troublesome waves have stirred

LORD, I have asked of You good things.

I have asked, and You have provided.

My heart was not lifted up against mine enemies.

 

LORD, wicked things were said of paradise

Before my face.

It was said, “Because you do not know

“You do not know this earth

“After you go to paradise…”

LORD, surely, You have great pleasures stored up for us

Even grains and great soups and good offerings.

LORD, like a woman in travail

We shall give birth

And not to wind

Nor to vanity.

We shall give birth

And shall tabernacle in Your house for eternity.

For, LORD, heaven is wondrous

And the works of your hands

And the foundations of my houses

LORD, surely You know and have set them

And they are great.

For in the paradise of our LORD

There is a city, a city called Zion

And there are houses, and mansions

And great feasts

And great pleasures for eternity.

Our sin has been cast away,

And Zion rejoices.

Our sin, let Israel now say,

Has been cast to the bottom of the sea.

As for me, I was as a dead man

And You delivered me.

I was speechless, and dumb

And could not execute judgment for myself.

For ones too strong rose up against me

And sought to beset my soul

With lies, in order to turn the path of the murderer.

But, LORD, I testified before his face what were his sins.

And he did not answer

For my wisdom excelled.

No, he rather listened

And it was not wind

Nor was it chaff that I said.

I fed him, for his fathers have led him to err.

 

LORD, this is the people I dwell close to

Ones who honor you with their lips

But in their heart it is war.

In their heart it is great mischief and devices

And they seek to destroy me and my soul all day long

Even to lie about your paradise.

LORD, all knowledge rests with those who go to Your kingdom.

All wisdom and all glory

And we, we, Your saints,

Shall rule with You.

Yet, not yet, and my heart was haughty

Like Tyre, therefore, curses were among me

For my haughtiness and my sin.

Yet, for my repentance, and my patience

LORD, You will reward me.

 

Shall the wicked turn from his sin?

Shall the robbers turn from their sins?

Shall they, and pay back what they have stolen?

Shall they? Certainly they shall not hear

A word about their sins

If they do, and they shall grow as a cedar planted by waters

And You, You shall restore them

If, if they turn from their sins.

 

Yet, they shall not.

They shall continue in their wickedness,

And shall not be made straight

LORD, for they have sinned, and erred grievously against You

Even to Blaspheme your Holy One.

They have caused many to err

And have caused the righteous to err in judgment

And therefore bring a curse upon his head.

For he was set like a cedar by a river

Until the destroyer came into his life

And wrecked his vineyards

And spoiled his vines.

LORD, he did nothing so evil

But LORD, You shall pay recompense against those who besiege Jerusalem.

You shall pay recompense against those who besiege Judah.

LORD, even those round about Israel, let Israel now say

Even these, even those who set about Ephraim

Even these shall be saved, those who are to deliver your people.

But, to those who fight against us

LORD, these shall not be saved.

These shall be as stubble in the great furnace.

 

LORD, the greatness of Your mercy is kind.

And LORD, great things await those who wait on You

For in Zion, yes, in Zion, we shall no longer sin.

We shall no longer have sin, nor sinful thought

Nor deed. For heaven is glorious

And greatly to be feared is God

For creating such a place

Of sprawling forests,

And waters and rivers,

And the holy City of Zion

And the peaceful rivers of Ezekiel

And the cities, and the surrounding

Wastes shall be where the wicked go

To be feasted on by the worm

Outside the gates of Zion.

A continual feast, a continual weeping

A continual gnashing of teeth, shall the worm

Cause those who have deeply revolted from Your truth

Even to scourge the jewel which mine own eyes

Have seen.

For great pleasures shall be laid for eternity

And activity for the saints

And death, yes, the grave

Shall be for the sinner.

Great love shall be for those who trust in Your Name

Jesus, yet for the sinner, they shall fall by the sword

And be slain all at once.

They shall no longer rise up against Your servant Israel

And they shall be feasted on sweetly by the worm.

A Discourse on “Second Coming” By William Butler Yeats

Oddly enough, I wrote a poem about the "Sphynx" and it's an image about the apocalypse. Which, I came to this poem by William Butler Yeats, and he mentioned "Spiritus Mundi", which would be something similar to my description of the "Davidic Archetype". To avoid any unnecessary discourse, "Spiritus Mundi" means "Spirit World", but the two concepts are identical.

And, I can't get through this, how interesting it is that I come up with a poem about the Sphynx, twisting its shoulder blades even, almost exactly the same idea and imagery. The notion of the Sphynx in my mythology came from a weird hybrid animal born in a lab. Of course, Yeats describes the Sphinx, but doesn't say that's what it is. I know, from having pictures of Egypt, what a Sphynx looks like, but I arrived at the conclusion from YouTube.

It's interesting to me. What's even more interesting is how the LORD says, "By two or three witnesses my Law shall be established." I would never expect to see another poem relating the Sphynx in so similar a fashion, especially linking it to End Days Eschatology.

The poem is misinterpreted, though. Yeat's ethos skewed the meaning of the poem. The poem is not saying that the "Sphynx" is Christ, but rather the "Sphynx" is coming to gobble up the child. It's plain to me that's what the poem means, even if the Poet was unintentional in describing it. That would be the Seventh Trumpet when the Dragon tries to swallow up the Child Christ.

Which, Egypt is likened to a Dragon or Serpent in the Scripture's poetry; so, it's very likely that the Sphynx archetype is being used here in two distinct places to describe something specific. As Hosea says, the Prophets speak in similitudes, that would mean parables.

The story here is imperative. Perhaps the Sphynx in Egypt has something to do with the Dragon of Egypt or the Nile. It's interesting to me that both poets, myself and Yeats, come to this imagination cogently and lucidly, separately, and without having read one another's poems.

Yeats, William Butler. "The Second Coming." Poetry Foundation. https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/43290/the-second-coming. 2/13/22. Web.

Tom Riddle

Tides of evening grains

So austere, so austere

Is my voice in poetry.

Tides of evening grain

So austere is my idea in poetry.

 

How the exalted verse

O’ thou exalted verse…

I cannot tell a riddle

A riddle, a riddle.

Blasted I am.

No riddle, no riddle.

 

Tom Riddle

The Master of Oxford’s

Fated day…

When the children, the children

The children,

Do shed their fame.

Forget they do the tyrants…

O’ I cannot tell a riddle

A riddle, a riddle,

Of that blasted fame

Of Tom Riddle

Tom Riddle

He who is unnamed.

 

I cannot make my mystery

So bleak

I cannot hide it in my exalted verse…

Pretty words do not come to me

O’ Tom Riddle, Tom Riddle

Riddle, Riddle,

Children called men

Walking through the halls of Yale

Tearing down the statues

You use as refuse, like bales.

 

Tom Riddle, Tom Riddle

I cannot make exalted verse…

O’ you children at Oxford

Do you know the ancient verse?

 

Tyrants rise, I cannot claim

O Tom Riddle, Tom Riddle

You blasted, ancient fame.

You are Bonaparte,

You are Mary Queen of Scotts.

You are Elizabeth I

Feuding, feuding,

Killing many lots;

Hold onto your power

So power very vain?

Does it insult you

O feminist, that I unearth your hero’s vein?

A tyrant among men

A tyrant among wos

Tom Riddle, Tom Riddle

You like Cleopatra or Augustus of Rome.

 

Nay, the gender does not lay a curse

Nay, the hidden message in my verse.

Tom Riddle, Tom Riddle

I have no exalted say.

There you went to Oxford,

There you were so gay.

 

No… there is no sad story

With which to tell…

Like “Harry Potter”

You and him grew in similar hell.

 

Tom Riddle, Tom Riddle

What is your fame?

Blast that imbeciles had

Ruined your infamous name.

 

Tom Riddle, Tom Riddle

You hide in ancient verse.

The darling who created you

Created you chief and first.

No, waving of a wand does not say

That magic is so very good…

That magic does not exist

That is what a sane person should

Believe.

 

Tom Riddle, Tom Riddle

Know the ancient verse.

You burgeoned once

You burgeoned twice

Your lips in ignorance purse.

 

O’ you hide, you hide,

Specter in the Grae;

Ancient melodies were you sung

O hero lauded for your fame.

The Canaanites, the Canaanites

The famous as so slain…

O’ Tom Riddle

How a generation made you so very, very vain

To turn that Amon Ra

Into a warrior who would pray.

 

Tom Riddle, Tom Riddle

Here so very vain…

Meditate on my wisdom

For Tom Riddle’s become the lay.